I’m a fresher at oxford, for fine art, i’ve been here for just over a week and i absolutely hate it. i miss my mum and my dog and my family. i have a few friends at uni that i like, as well as a guy in second year i knew before coming here who is also from wales that. we went on a coffee date and we talked and it was really helpful, but i’m convinced he’s going to get tired of me again and then i’ll be on my own completely. i understand absolutely nothing in our lectures and everyone else in the group seems to be much more confident in both their theory and history skills and their studio work. i just don’t see what anyone in that school saw in me to think i’m on the same level as everyone else here. i know it’s only been a week, but i’m so nervous i can’t eat anything and all i do when i get back to my room is cry. i can’t drop out already because term has only just started and i have no other way of getting on in my life. i hate this. i’ve been told it takes time to adjust and get used to it by everyone, but how long is it going to take? i just feel awful all the time and i don’t know how anyone else has done uni so easily. this is more of a rant than an ask for advice, i don’t know what km going to do with myself