I am so hard on myself, as you will see as you read it this post.
So, I have recently started university and I have just in the last few days been given my feedback for my first set of assignments. As I'm doing two modules at the same time, that is two sets of assignments. I don't know whetger that is the same for all universities.
For one of the assignments I got 72%, and for another I got 52%. Now, as I am the beginning of my degree, and I'm only in first year, I consider this a good position to be in. Firstly, because I know that I can write to a certain level, and it is not necessarily my ability to connect and apply ideas that is holding me back; it's my inappropriate referencing and having the time in space within a word count to properly explain and develop my analysis. Secondly, in particular I view the referencing as bit of an 'easy fix', because having read my feedback and brushed up on my referencing, I now understand how I got the referencing wrong and how I can improve it for the next assignment.
Anyway, that is bit of context of the way. w
What I really wanted to say is that getting the 52% — although not bad at all at this stage — it has really knocked my confidence in starting the next assignment for the module.
I know that each assignment is different, so there is going to be fluctuating understanding and fluctuating grades, to a certain extent — because certain types of questions my mind will comprehend better than others. That is only natural. The 52% certainly was a blow. I know that I'm very hard on myself.
I think I just need to feel the shock and the slight pain, and then move on. I also find the disparity between the two grades quite amusing, in a way, because it just shows how easy it is to potentially miss interpret a question or not quite hit the mark. Regardless, it is all a learning experience.
In general, I am feeling quite overwhelmed with wanting to do the best that I can. Is it bad to consider speed reading some of the reading, and focusing on aspects of the reading that are most important to answering the assignment questions? What a mean by this is, quite a lot of the reading is building up skills and context, and then aspects of it is relating directly to the question — and it is my responsibility to apply and converge that information correctly. That said, I feel like I might make a note of the most important areas to read upon, and spend more time on them, and skim over the least important parts. This will save me time and energy as well, but in doing that I would feel as though 'I'm not doing it right', or that it may negatively impact my grade.
A second or third perspective on this would be great.