Hi everyone! I have been in an ldr since september and we had previously been going out 2 1/2 years. Ive found it one of the most difficult things ever! Before we would see each other everyday and pretty much lived with each other, now we see each other every 1-2 weeks (which I know it doesn't seem bad compared to others but is difficult for me) This last week (i'm due on soon, so feel this may have something to do with it) and during exam week, I was having doubts thinking I cannot manage and that we should split up. However, I know in the back on my mind this is the last thing I want as I honestly love him. I have such an amazing time when I'm with him then when he leaves I go downhill. Some weeks I'm fine but weeks like this I feel like giving up! It's hard as well as we have been together since we are 15 and I know some people think it will never work (being together forever) but that is honestly what I want, yet during these weeks I think what if they are right? what if he dumps me? I really need a way to think clearly during these weeks, and wondered if other people experience the same thing?
Another thing is last semester I had the idea we would be living together in third year, however during exam week he seemed relaxed and somewhat 'lazy' and now has his results and they are that good. Therefore, my perception of when I though our ldr would end has changed as I am not certain about whether he will be able to get a placement in third year to live with me!
I feel like this week I have lost feelings for everything, not just him, my family etc and university work etc (kind of a once a month depression) yet they get me so bad everytime!