Feeling demotivated. Boyfriend sort of broke up with me but is the same on-off heartbreak that has been going on for the past few years of him. Trying to ease off my diet because I think I'm becoming a control freak and I've gained 6 pounds - it's so fast I know it's water weight but it still sucks and I feel huge. I'm going on a student holiday this year too and I feel massive. Not to mention, I'm going to uni and my older sister has been sick for a few years and she's had to put off university for a few years now and if I end up going to university and she doesn't I'll be ridden with guilt.
And like, I'm doing Spanish A2, scraped a B on the border last year but I am absolutely so bad at it. I took the subject as a dare, I scraped by my GCSE by memorising essays word for word. Didn't know the present tense until this year, no joke. I literally do not know the language and the speakings are in May. I'm screwed beyond belief, and I do not know what to do. Any advice would be appreciated.