My Road to A* everywhere

Where my IGCSE History Paper 4 people at? Last paper, but sure as hell a pretty important one. Anyone doing USA as the depth study?

Yeah. The problem is I can't tame the beast within. As soon as the exams are over I'm going to be partying everyday. I guess I'm hungry like the wolf 😏😏😏. Obviously I'm going to put my head down when I need to but the 1st year is always the year that you do the partying in.


⚔🛡⚔~Nothing happens to anyone that he is not fitted by nature to bear - Maximus Decimus Meridius~⚔🛡⚔

What advice would you give to me then? I am someone who has had an extremely unfortunate childhood/teenage-hood. Thus, I have been isolated from the majority of 'youngsters' in my area and school. So, I only have few friends. Am I wrong for wanting to study extremely hard to get away from this life that I dislike? Even though I live in Surrey, am I wrong for wanting to study hard so that I can get to a prestigious University? I am in year ten and am genuinely interested in your thoughts on this.

yeah, i agree with you think i will have to change my views about alcohol.

You're on your own there mate. Sorry.


⚔🛡⚔~Nothing happens to anyone that he is not fitted by nature to bear - Maximus Decimus Meridius~⚔🛡⚔

Aww that's so not nice She can do whatever she wants really it's her choice.
Different people are different ! She enjoys revising so let her
I'm sure she has friends and I bet you her parents are not concerned about her. They would probably be extremely proud and so grateful to have a such intelligent daughter like her

Btw VERY WELL DONE on your GCSE Are you currently doing A-levels ? If so which ones ?

Damn it! Always on my own, smh. Oh well, the final bit of the race. Exhausted after 22 exams, and this is the key to my freedom. Too bad they completely changed the paper a year ago, so there's no examiner reports or anything to guide me towards the A* boundary. Guess I can go over the mark scheme.

It's 1pm already so I shall go and study for a few hours and come back later to relax a bit before the final day that is tomorrow. 13 out of 14 people in my class take history so it will be a rather "full" exam room (we are the biggest IGCSE class ever in my school):

I did go to say I was just expressing my views but I do think people work too hard in this day and age at a young age when they got another 5+ years of it if they go to university. I do think doing too much will always be better than doing too little though!
Yeah doing A level at this time, got my first proper exam tomorrow!
Im doing:
Computing
Biology
Physics
Can't wait for the summer

14 people in your class !! We have over 20 and there are 4 classes. Do you go to a private school 🤔🤔🤔🤔


⚔🛡⚔~Nothing happens to anyone that he is not fitted by nature to bear - Maximus Decimus Meridius~⚔🛡⚔

Yeah, it's private. And only one class per year, so you don't see a lot of people on the corridors.
But I am enjoying myself there. Might switch to Sevenoaks for IB (got in somehow hah). That school is super expensive though (sth like 25-30k pounds a year) so I am reluctant.

Oh ok I guess everyone is just determined to get those grades
Ooh Good luck ! How much have you been revising ?
Same !! I'm going to be really busy so i'm excited. I just want these exams to be over. I've got 13 left

I see. Good luck with your exam tomorrow.


⚔🛡⚔~Nothing happens to anyone that he is not fitted by nature to bear - Maximus Decimus Meridius~⚔🛡⚔

13 seems like a lot of exams, you doing GCSE's or A-levels?

Been revising solid throughout the year for these bad boys due to slacking a bit last year. Half expected to do the same as GCSE's but sorted it all out now. Per subject throughout the year I've done maybe 120+ hours to make up for having to do resists too. Feeling quite confident about it atm as only need BBB to get onto the course.

Yeh I have 22 altogether I'm doing GCSE's

That's good. I wish you the best
Recently, I've been revising 6-9 hours everyday - during the half term

Thank you, i'll need it! History isn't really my thing, I hate anything that has to do with wars and deaths etc. My depth study is USA and there's a lot about racism which upsets me and makes me not want to study it.

Thankfully I can drop it after tomorrow, so that's the last time I have to learn how much humans suck as a species, yay! (well, at least in the historical context)

Keep up the good work and best of luck!

A large part of this depends on your how you want to get through life, I have the same feeling of wanting to go to a prestigious university but I don't have the motivation to put in hours of work in to be the very best I can. I'm more than happy enough to get to the university and as long as I get into the Uni I want I'll be happy.

So far after going through lots of applications and open days, universities only care you got B/C's in english and maths for majority of courses.
This isn't completely true for high end degrees like medicine, some law and OxBridge which would require almost full A*'s in everything but that's because they get so many applicants they can chose as they please. Overall everyone thinks OxBridge have so much more than other universities, they really don't + I don't know about you but don't feel like I would fit in with the people there.

Year 10 is very early to be studying hard, if you get the concepts and can do whatever is being asked of you I wouldn't worry much. If you find something you can't do then that's the time to put in work and learn how to do it. Also I see you mention about getting away from people in the area you live in, that's a good way to convince yourself to work but I would recommend to try and be friends with who you can at this point. Don't waste time on people who will forget about you when you need some to turn too.

Could I ask what you dislike so much in your life? If it's lack of friends a prestigious university won't be the ultimate solution, yes you will meet new people there who may be more privileged but don't for a second let that fool you that they will be better people. I've found I prefer to be with honest people and these always tend to be people with more life experience.

Throughout life people concentrate way too much on money, IMO but I think that when you know a true connection is made with someone, money doesn't even cross your mind.

As I'm a slacker take what I say with a pinch of salt as it's my view and works for some and not for others. If you're a bright kid or hard working no matter what happens I'm sure you'll go far in life.

Hope I helped even a little ^^

Lol. If you're against alcohol then don't change your view because of other people. The wolf bit was a Duran Duran reference. Lol.


⚔🛡⚔~Nothing happens to anyone that he is not fitted by nature to bear - Maximus Decimus Meridius~⚔🛡⚔

Thank-you for replying,
Yeah one of the biggest goals in my life is to go to Oxford and study law. Yeah, happiness is probably the most important aspect of Uni life. If you aren't happy than you are less likely to achieve. When I go and look round Oxford, I will probably ask myself if this is the right place for me to be, whether I will be happy and able to make friends easily.

In terms of going to Oxford, I believe that it will increase my chances of getting a good job afterwards. Being that law is very competitive. I think that there will definitely be a mixture of students at Oxford, with different backgrounds - so I am sure that I will find people to befriend Through life, I have mixed with many different people from different parts of society, so hopefully it won't be too hard. Even though people from a privileged may feel slightly threatened by me.

I just think that starting early will increase my chances of doing well. It has been difficult, but I have found out who my real friends are. So that is a positive, I have plenty of people to hang around with at school. But because I go to a private, all girls school - I have more life experience then most of the girls put together! It is also very catty and I am not the person who would pretend to like someone, I either like someone or I don't. I refuse to be two faced.

Well in my life, I have had many changes which haven't had the best impact on me. Ever since a young age, I have been sent to an all girls private school - where I simply have never been able to completely 'fit' in. I get on better with people from a state school background, as they seem to be more genuine and down to earth! Also, as I tend to have quite an alternative personality, many people have chosen to dislike me. When I was younger, my parents got a divorce which obviously had an awful impact. I had no one to talk to at that stage in my life, so it resulted in me becoming very closed off and so further strained my relationships with people. Have seen my mum and dad physically hurt each other also. My mum has had many boyfriends after the divorce, seeming to change men every month or so. Which obviously has been very confusing. My dad decided to get remarried a year after his divorce - introducing me to a completely new stepfamily. My mum has recently gotten engaged - which won't last. In year 7 and 8 my life started changing for the better. Had an academic scholarship to a school... made good friends... had my first boyfriend.. people actually started to respect who I was.

Then, I decided that the school wasn't challenging me enough academically, so I did an exam to get into the second best private school in the country. I guess a grew complacent. I got in and started the school in year 9. I was the only new girl, so it was pretty difficult. Everyone had already formed their own friendship groups and people had already formed an opinion about me before I had even joined or met the girls in my class. Purposefully, the school put me in the most difficult, bitchiest class... A really major event happened after that. Which I won't mention as it is still very raw and really difficult for me. I lost any chance of making friends really at my school, was stabbed in the back by my 'best friend,' everyone at my old school abandoned me in a time of need. My parents lost respect for me, creating even stronger barriers between them and me. I had absolutely no friends at all for about two terms in year 9. Was trying to be nice to people, kept a smile on my face and went into school every day. Lost my trust for boys in general, as the event involved a guy from the boys school round the corner. That was when I started experiencing quite negative, pessimistic thoughts. Didn't really understand the point in my life, no one wanted to know me, would have crowds of girls whispering behind my back - in front of me even. Yes, they bullied me. Teachers got involved and made the whole situation worse... like they always do. Soon enough, the effects of the event seemed to die down and I got more confidence again. Apparently the girls viewed me as being too confident when I joined, apparently complimenting others makes you a 'fake.'

I started becoming close with two girls in the class, effectively I just hung round by myself at the back of the group. Had no place. But kept on fighting. Then I started getting some awful comments about my appearance - made by people not only in my school, but in other areas. Was very badly cyber bullied - called 'chuckie' and 'gollum,' trust me those were the 'nice' comments. It really damaged my self esteem, had people making such comments to my face. But I just ignored it, I would never respond to anyone... would never stoop down to their level. I handled all of the situations so calmly and maturely that people felt threatened by me. Had no idea why I wasn't responding to them. So, I deleted all of my social media and soon the people got bored. Was alone again, parents were too busy with their own lives. Then in June 2015 something awful happened, I lost four people to death. Two relatives, the boy who I had perceived as being my soulmate, a girl who had tried to be nice to me at the school - murdered by her father. That had a massive impact on my life. However, I have recently released that the boy emotionally abused me, which I had no idea about.. The cousin which I was close to lost her father, so that ruined our relationship. We still find it hard to talk to one another. My mum kept getting hurt by all of her partners, crying all the time. I had to act as the parent effectively, so I am very protective of my mother.

Then, I went into year ten. Things started to look up again, made two close friends in my class. However, I started to become very anxious, experiencing panic attacks and everything. Thought nothing of it at first, soon my anxiety grew and grew. Deadlines wouldn't be met.. convinced that if I didn't get A stars then I was a failure. My grandma also got dementia, dad came down with depression. His wife lives in Essex, so she couldn't really completely support him. My dad has had depression 7 times in his life, so we aren't really that close at the moment. As that created a barrier. I made another really good friend from the boys school, who helped me regain my trust in boys. However, he left me and said that he could not cope with my 'anxiety and OCD like traits.' We were very close, so that hurt a lot. The two friends that I had made had a close friend who hated me - saw me as a threat, said that I was 'stealing her life.' So, I was bullied again at the beginning of year ten - at least I had a support network. At the beginning of year ten I was in hospital for a week due to my negativity... don't really want to expand on that.

Anyway, skipping forward a few months here I am. Currently having intense therapy/counselling. Trying to get over the anxiety and depression which I have been diagnosed with. Tried to give a brief outline of my life, but won't go into any more detail as don't want to further scar Zoe's thread. Right now though I can honestly say that I am 'happy,' I haven't been 'happy' since I was a very young kid. But now I am 'happy.' I have gotten myself more friends, a great guy who I am currently seeing. Have been able to get over my belief that I am 'ugly,' have met great people on TSR, am doing well academically and I am strong. Even though my relationships with my parents are still strained. With my mum busy planning her wedding and all...

Yeah, I completely agree that people focus way too much on money. I am not a materialistic person at all. I just want to use my experience from being fortunate to travel the world - embracing different cultures to help others. Being able to see the world has been a great positive of my life. But I want to have a career as a lawyer, rather than just a 'job.' I want to be able to progress up the career ladder, continuously learning and challenging myself. Helping people is my main aim. Yes, financially it is great. But, money is just material at the end of the day. Obviously, you have to have enough to be comfortable. I disagree with people being greedy with money though.

Yeah, I hope to go far in life and have a huge impact on the world in which we live.

Thank-you for replying,
Yeah one of the biggest goals in my life is to go to Oxford and study law. Yeah, happiness is probably the most important aspect of Uni life. If you aren't happy than you are less likely to achieve. When I go and look round Oxford, I will probably ask myself if this is the right place for me to be, whether I will be happy and able to make friends easily.

In terms of going to Oxford, I believe that it will increase my chances of getting a good job afterwards. Being that law is very competitive. I think that there will definitely be a mixture of students at Oxford, with different backgrounds - so I am sure that I will find people to befriend Through life, I have mixed with many different people from different parts of society, so hopefully it won't be too hard. Even though people from a privileged may feel slightly threatened by me.

I just think that starting early will increase my chances of doing well. It has been difficult, but I have found out who my real friends are. So that is a positive, I have plenty of people to hang around with at school. But because I go to a private, all girls school - I have more life experience then most of the girls put together! It is also very catty and I am not the person who would pretend to like someone, I either like someone or I don't. I refuse to be two faced.

Well in my life, I have had many changes which haven't had the best impact on me. Ever since a young age, I have been sent to an all girls private school - where I simply have never been able to completely 'fit' in. I get on better with people from a state school background, as they seem to be more genuine and down to earth! Also, as I tend to have quite an alternative personality, many people have chosen to dislike me. When I was younger, my parents got a divorce which obviously had an awful impact. I had no one to talk to at that stage in my life, so it resulted in me becoming very closed off and so further strained my relationships with people. Have seen my mum and dad physically hurt each other also. My mum has had many boyfriends after the divorce, seeming to change men every month or so. Which obviously has been very confusing. My dad decided to get remarried a year after his divorce - introducing me to a completely new stepfamily. My mum has recently gotten engaged - which won't last. In year 7 and 8 my life started changing for the better. Had an academic scholarship to a school... made good friends... had my first boyfriend.. people actually started to respect who I was.

Then, I decided that the school wasn't challenging me enough academically, so I did an exam to get into the second best private school in the country. I guess a grew complacent. I got in and started the school in year 9. I was the only new girl, so it was pretty difficult. Everyone had already formed their own friendship groups and people had already formed an opinion about me before I had even joined or met the girls in my class. Purposefully, the school put me in the most difficult, bitchiest class... A really major event happened after that. Which I won't mention as it is still very raw and really difficult for me. I lost any chance of making friends really at my school, was stabbed in the back by my 'best friend,' everyone at my old school abandoned me in a time of need. My parents lost respect for me, creating even stronger barriers between them and me. I had absolutely no friends at all for about two terms in year 9. Was trying to be nice to people, kept a smile on my face and went into school every day. Lost my trust for boys in general, as the event involved a guy from the boys school round the corner. That was when I started experiencing quite negative, pessimistic thoughts. Didn't really understand the point in my life, no one wanted to know me, would have crowds of girls whispering behind my back - in front of me even. Yes, they bullied me. Teachers got involved and made the whole situation worse... like they always do. Soon enough, the effects of the event seemed to die down and I got more confidence again. Apparently the girls viewed me as being too confident when I joined, apparently complimenting others makes you a 'fake.'

I started becoming close with two girls in the class, effectively I just hung round by myself at the back of the group. Had no place. But kept on fighting. Then I started getting some awful comments about my appearance - made by people not only in my school, but in other areas. Was very badly cyber bullied - called 'chuckie' and 'gollum,' trust me those were the 'nice' comments. It really damaged my self esteem, had people making such comments to my face. But I just ignored it, I would never respond to anyone... would never stoop down to their level. I handled all of the situations so calmly and maturely that people felt threatened by me. Had no idea why I wasn't responding to them. So, I deleted all of my social media and soon the people got bored. Was alone again, parents were too busy with their own lives. Then in June 2015 something awful happened, I lost four people to death. Two relatives, the boy who I had perceived as being my soulmate, a girl who had tried to be nice to me at the school - murdered by her father. That had a massive impact on my life. However, I have recently released that the boy emotionally abused me, which I had no idea about.. The cousin which I was close to lost her father, so that ruined our relationship. We still find it hard to talk to one another. My mum kept getting hurt by all of her partners, crying all the time. I had to act as the parent effectively, so I am very protective of my mother.

Then, I went into year ten. Things started to look up again, made two close friends in my class. However, I started to become very anxious, experiencing panic attacks and everything. Thought nothing of it at first, soon my anxiety grew and grew. Deadlines wouldn't be met.. convinced that if I didn't get A stars then I was a failure. My grandma also got dementia, dad came down with depression. His wife lives in Essex, so she couldn't really completely support him. My dad has had depression 7 times in his life, so we aren't really that close at the moment. As that created a barrier. I made another really good friend from the boys school, who helped me regain my trust in boys. However, he left me and said that he could not cope with my 'anxiety and OCD like traits.' We were very close, so that hurt a lot. The two friends that I had made had a close friend who hated me - saw me as a threat, said that I was 'stealing her life.' So, I was bullied again at the beginning of year ten - at least I had a support network. At the beginning of year ten I was in hospital for a week due to my negativity... don't really want to expand on that.

Anyway, skipping forward a few months here I am. Currently having intense therapy/counselling. Trying to get over the anxiety and depression which I have been diagnosed with. Tried to give a brief outline of my life, but won't go into any more detail as don't want to further scar Zoe's thread. Right now though I can honestly say that I am 'happy,' I haven't been 'happy' since I was a very young kid. But now I am 'happy.' I have gotten myself more friends, a great guy who I am currently seeing. Have been able to get over my belief that I am 'ugly,' have met great people on TSR, am doing well academically and I am strong. Even though my relationships with my parents are still strained. With my mum busy planning her wedding and all...

Yeah, I completely agree that people focus way too much on money. I am not a materialistic person at all. I just want to use my experience from being fortunate to travel the world - embracing different cultures to help others. Being able to see the world has been a great positive of my life. But I want to have a career as a lawyer, rather than just a 'job.' I want to be able to progress up the career ladder, continuously learning and challenging myself. Helping people is my main aim. Yes, financially it is great. But, money is just material at the end of the day. Obviously, you have to have enough to be comfortable. I disagree with people being greedy with money though.

Yeah, I hope to go far in life and have a huge impact on the world in which we live.