Friendships have always been an area I tried to avoid. I was a loner for a really long time, and I convinced myself that I was happier that way- that I didn't need anyone. The ones I did make friends with when I was 10 eventually turned against me, and it was really hard being alone. I was that weird kid no one wanted to speak to, and I can pretend it didn't hurt an inch- but I'd just be lying.
I've recently left Year 11 now, as someone's who's made quite a few friends in school, but I'll have to start again. The friends I have right now weren't made until Year 9, so I'm really worried about sixth form. I'm terrible at maintaining conversations, I don't want to approach anyone and I am socially inept- even queuing at the cinema is incredibly stressful. I can't handle crowds or too many people, and even the bus can sometimes be a problem - where I'm willing to get off if it gets too much. I'm sorry if this seems petty, but this is something I've been thinking about a lot. I'm just not sure if anyone there would actually want to be in my company, and when the time comes to start sixth form, I'm worried it'll just start off bad again. I've been to several primary schools in two cities and it's all the same.
Please help me out here, because I don't everything to fall apart come September.
Thanks for reading,