FORTY EIGHT: Literally nothing happening in terms of work, not that im complaining about that still off time table so no lessons so just been doing sketchbook tings
tbh in a strange way i have enjoyed this little mini exam season, it's so cute when everyone pulls together and helps each other revise. This is the thing i miss from GCSE really, when everyone bonded over the mutual hatred/love for subjects that they were forced to take now everyone seems more self interested which makes sense as the subjects are more specialised and people take fewer, it's been nice though seeing people who don't usually share my frees, plus someone gave me their tissues, friendship goals if there ever was (srsly though i appreciated that gesture, shows at least someone cares)
work level = 0 mood = relaxed stressed = not stressed sleep = first dreamless sleep i can remember in 9 months
the last freelance thing i did was a cat for someone's birthday about a month ago cos i havent had time i would post them but im always paranoid about people inrl recognising them inrl plus im hoping at some point in the summer to set up a proper website thing in the summer and i would like to keep everything separate tbh is the honest answer
the last freelance thing i did was a cat for someone's birthday about a month ago cos i havent had time i would post them but im always paranoid about people inrl recognising them inrl plus im hoping at some point in the summer to set up a proper website thing in the summer and i would like to keep everything separate tbh is the honest answer
summer is so long you could have PMed me
if that's what you prefer though, I will wait eagerly
------------------ FORTY NINE, FIFTY, FIFTY ONE, FIFTY TWO, FIFTY THREE: Have returned to this bc need some structure, acc not even that just somewhere to keep a log of things cos it is good to visualise how much you have got done plus cutting off all my log things at the same time wasn't the smartest plan but anyway tbh ik noone cares but i do this for myself and if u dont like it u can bugger off anyway it is better that all my **** is in one sock so to speak rather than spread across threads where it can annoy everyone else, so see i am considerate and altruistic been in a funny mood, could it..it..be...happiness Overall grades in each subject = A*AA atm so a tiny bit thrilled with that cos finally reached my targets <<< love that emoji, looks like a deranged piece of bluetack now all i have to do is get that for the final thing been very productive lately i have noticed that my productiveness is directly proportional to my happiness level which is why im feeling like it is imperative to get a job in the summer but that is an issue for another time.
work level = 100000000000000 mood = pleased because the printer FINALLY WORKED u know ur life is lacking in excitement when you start giggling hyseterically cos ur A3 paper (A3!!!!! ) finally gets printed off stressed = little bit stressed sleep = only the teeth falling/pulled out one so nothing major
FIFTY FOUR: lost mass motivation and feel down. (yes if u haven't noticed i swing from happiness to despair a lot lol) anyway i have like 14 days to fill this A1 board even though it is half filled so that's something then i already have 2 extra large pieces as well as that but i need to do more sketchbook work. im finding thise whole thing of you have nearly left school a bit depressing in some ways, dont get me wrong i hate school but i find it sort of miserable to see the year 12s doing the exact same stuff like UCAS research and stuff as we were a similar time last year, everything is just really cyclical and we are just the latest crop of people to leave and will be forgotten like everyone else. I think the only time you know if you truly meant something to people is if they care about you in your absence not just your presence but anyway
work level = some mood = who put a chainsaw in my uterus stressed = stressed sleep = bad dreams
EASTER 'HOLIDAYS' (FIFTY FIVE): Apparently it is April's Fool today, if only all this work was an April's fool lol imagine that, AQA be like 'haha gotcha' tbh though i would probably rage out after losing so much of my life time to this work Things i need to do today: -Actually get dressed would be a good start -Do at least one piece for my board (probably wax resist or similar) -Tidy my room some more
Sidenote: can my face just ****ing heal, everytime i smile (which is a rare occurrence lmfao) it starts bleeding again
work level = none as of yet mood = pissed off, sad and emotional stressed = stressed sleep = bad dreams but at least i managed to design something in it #dedication
awww thank you Lychee i dont really feel like i can atm but i shall keep going and hope for the best x
No worries Take a break and try getting back to it when you feel better , make sure to take regular breaks whilst revising with water and a few snacks to keep you going and you'll be all good
Things i need to do today: -Actually get dressed would be a good start ✅ woop go me such achievements. much wow -Do at least one piece for my board (probably wax resist or similar)✅ Did Two -Tidy my room some more ✅ tidied it then made it a mess again by doing art
Hmmmmmm should i stay up all night i mean i actually have an idea of what to do next now (ty @Willy Pete) so i may as well get on with it and it's not like i actually have any purpose in life apart from to get this work done sooooo the thing that has been hard about this project in particular is not only are you thinking what to draw and in what medium but what to draw on as well and its just a headache anyway i dont feel like sleeping, too much on meh mind and too down and i cba with the dreams today tbh and this is the only way i can get away so. let's crack on with this drawing then