I have struggled with confidence alot over the years. I constantly feel I have friends then don't. I know I am confident and outgoing but when I get in a situation such as education I feel scared of people and I don't know why anymore. I thought it was cause of my anxiety but everyone has that dont they? I also thought I had bi polar disorder as well, which goes in a constant loop in my head. I say nothing when I am around groups of people cause in my mind I dont know how to talk in a group. I want to be myself and get on with it. But I feel constantly anxious about doing everything right and perfectly and not letting myself go. Other people around me seem to have everything they want a good job and they get praise cause they are the only one with the skills for that job! great confidence no friend issues, I feel jealous and annoyed as you'd expect as why am i the one with no confidence???. Im the only one who has which annoys me is it cause I've been through so much that I don't want to make friends?? I want to make friends but I act like I don't want to know people. I zone out in situations Im scared off so badly I cant snap out of it. I can't sleep at all as i feel scared I won't wake up at the right time which sounds ridiulous but its not. I don't believe i can do stuff im good at and embarassed what people will think of me.