I feel like I'm coming to a crossroads with my mental health and I don't quite know which way to go.
I've been ordering books about borderline personality disoder (one has arrived which I've started reading today) because I've suspected for a while that it covers a lot of the things I experience. I've considered bringing it up with GPs but have been worried about it getting on my notes and stuff.
No GP has managed to conntect the dots so far as I've been between doctors over the last few years (and various psychologists/counsellors/psychiatrists) because of being back and forth from uni. Plus, depending on what meds I want ill leave things out. I know that no one GP has yet had access to all my notes in one go so they don't have the full picture. Plus some stuff never comes up like it does in therapy (substance abuse, getting arrested etc.).
Basically, this means it's up to me to go to a GP and say 'I think I have borderline, I need a referal'... and I'm not sure I want to start that particular ball rolling. But then I wonder whether, if you don't, in another 6 months I'll be addicted to something and back in a holding cell.