How to move on from the past? IM STUCK ON HURT. HELP.

The past two and a half years haven't been great for me at all. I have had two failed relationships, I've been very sick (but got better) and my family are a bunch of non-understanding jerks who treat me like dirt (personal issues).

I have come to realise that I don't have many friends to count on and living at home is awful. I hate waking up everyday knowing I have no one to call on, go on holiday with, spend my Friday nights with. Nothing. My going numb.

I find myself snooping Instagram looking at other people's lives and they're all on holiday and going to festivals and all with their friends. It really pains me as I'd like the same too.

I vent my frustrations out on my family who don't understand what I am going through. I've decided that it is best to act civil towards them but not talk to them any longer regarding how I am/what I am up too. My mum doesn't care or ask to know why I feel this way which is quite funny because I actually think she ENJOYS me being miserable at home not having any friends to hang out with. I HAVE HAD IT TRYING TO EXPLAIN MY FRUSTRATIONS TO HER. I've care about her as my mother but I am DONE going above and beyond for her. Done so.

I'm making small improvements in my life to distance myself from my family (especially HER) like my knew job at Starbucks, going to the gym, finding student accommodation for next year (hoping to meet new people) and I am planning to go travelling too this winter. I decided that I wasn't going to take my mum anymore because I just find her inconsiderate.

I am TRYING SO HARD to move on from my past but sometimes I feel lonely.

How do I move on and also stop feeling like I need to compare my life with other people my age but it is really hard not too because they're doing all the things I wish I was doing.

My unsatisfying life hurts so bad, I cry most nights.