There’s this guy I’ve known since I was 3 and he was 5. I moved away when I was 9 but came back when I was 13 (ages are relevant, I know I’ve put a lot of numbers).
When I came back as a teen, I saw his family a few times but it wasn’t until the year he went to university that I started seeing them frequently. He is at uni to become a farmer and had to do work experience before he went. He chose to do his work experience at the farm next door to my house, out of the entire county which was interesting. He then came over every day to “see my brother” which was really him flirting with me and playing with my brother occasionally. My brother asked him to play nerf and we ended up hiding in my room. He only agreed to play because I grabbed a gun.
In the years since then, he’s not dated anyone, even though he’s at university. He doesn’t currently have a girlfriend and every time he’s home he makes a point to spend time with me, even when it’s only a few minutes since he is usually asked to do countless chores when I’m over at his with my family. He hugged me goodbye the last time I saw him as well, which is out of character as he’s always been averse to affection for the most part.
I’m fairly confident that he really likes me, he’s essentially said it in the way he is around me. I’ve been in love with him since I was 15, I’m now almost 19. I tried to forget about it multiple times but because he’s at university I thought I’d leave it until he was finished. I can’t though. Every time I see him I love him even more, he’s gorgeous and really sweet to me. He’s usually the don’t care, arrogant kind. But when he’s talking to me he’s a different guy and I can’t help but love him.
What should I do? When should I tell him I reciprocate? How do I go about this?
Thank you!