Depression Society MkII

It's horrible when it suddenly hits you that being ill has actually properly messed things up. I haven't been at school since September so I've obviously missed the boat in terms of uni applications, so now all my friends are getting interviews and offers and I am stuck here knowing I'll have to spend all of next year still mouldering away in this little town, totally alone while all my friends are off having a brilliant time at uni. All my life I've had such a solid plan and now it's all fallen away. It's not supposed to be a big deal, I can still apply next year when I've finished my A Levels, but that doesn't seem very comforting at the moment.

Lots and lots of self-loathing going on here. But I've pretty much stopped the SH, which I guess is a good thing. It wasn't working any more.

It's horrible when it suddenly hits you that being ill has actually properly messed things up. I haven't been at school since September so I've obviously missed the boat in terms of uni applications, so now all my friends are getting interviews and offers and I am stuck here knowing I'll have to spend all of next year still mouldering away in this little town, totally alone while all my friends are off having a brilliant time at uni. All my life I've had such a solid plan and now it's all fallen away. It's not supposed to be a big deal, I can still apply next year when I've finished my A Levels, but that doesn't seem very comforting at the moment.

Lots and lots of self-loathing going on here. But I've pretty much stopped the SH, which I guess is a good thing. It wasn't working any more.

Don't worry. One of my friends has ME (or is it MS? I always forget which one's which ) and she's had to repeat her final year at the same school. I've got several who are taking gap years, and whilst, yes, some are annoyed that they did, they're mainly saving up money for next year! It seems that if you do something interesting on a gap year you'll inevitably find something to start a conversation about, so use it to your advantage. It's just a hiccup.

Well done on stopping the SH.

Thank you. I guess the only reason I'm looking at it so negatively is that I can't imagine being better and being able to get on with life. When I am better (or at least, when I can function in the world ) I will probably realise how silly it was to worry so much about having to take a gap year.

How are you, anyway? (Pleased to "meet" you, by the way.)

You have to move on. I can't stress it more. Honestly, I know how agonisingly hard it is, but dwelling on the past only makes things worse. Spend more time with friends if possible. You need to take your mind off it, and get yourself into some situation or routine that makes you happy for the time being.

argh, i just typed out such a long message, pressed backspace and instead of it removing the last character, it went back a page and i lost it

got to go out now but i'll post when i get back. need to get a few things out today. not feeling great at all.

for all. x

i feel ill to the verge of puking this morning. but it's not a hangover. don't know what it is.

those of you who want to get fit - play DODGEBALL! finally i've found a sport i enjoy!

mini, pic of the shoes or it's not true! Shoes make me sooo happy too. Gymnastics, shoes, men, and cats. That's all I need to be happy. And a valium prescription.

Poll to choose which leotard I wear tomorrow (yes I'm excited): http://www.thestudentroom.co.uk/showthread.php?t=779869

My housemate Sarah things depression and sadness are the same thing I hate how ignorant people are. I thought she would know better as her parents have brought her well. But oh well. Ive been feeling so low today

Wanna' talk?

My housemate Sarah things depression and sadness are the same thing I hate how ignorant people are. I thought she would know better as her parents have brought her well. But oh well. Ive been feeling so low today