I'm currently 16, turning 17 this year and 18 the next.
I'm in college studying 3 very different subjects, but because I didn't get the grade expected in English (a 7) I haven't been able to enrol in any A-Level courses. I'm studying GCSE Photography, GCSE Law & Crim and GCSE Maths (Expected grades- 7, PASS, 4)
Due to the nature of the household I'm living in, and relationship with my mother and area I live in, I feel defeated on the daily... reminded of past traumas even in my own room. My father fully supports me moving to Germany, he's been a sweetheart; and gets along well with my German partner who is able support the two of us (While me still being given an allowance to help with bills as a 'thank you' from my father)
I want to escape- I am able to leave college as of September, but where do I start? I speak pretty good German. But do I apply for anything? Do I just get a one-way ticket, apply for a bank? Or, alternatively, do I wait until I'm 18 to escape?
In case you think that this is just 'teen-angst' it really isn't; I was assaulted by someone close to me when I was little, but when I told someone, I didn't specify all the details of what had happened- so they were left to believing my abuser. My mother actively supports him, and he tries to draw her in into believing him... which greatly impacts our relationship, thus trauma consumes me and I feel trapped where-ever I am. She has seen the tears and injuries I left on myself, but claims that they're just crocodile and that I'm doing it for attention.
A few weeks ago, I was scrolling through my FYP (For You Page, basically a set algorithm based on Location on similar interests. It's completely random) on TikTok, and out of nowhere, his face appeared on my timeline of him talking about his sexual escapades - I told my mother that he appeared on there, and hwat he was saying, she accused me of stalking him; she told him that I saw him on TikTok and that I have been reported to the police by him (Previously when I was 15, I confronted him via Instagram DM and he reported me to the Police from there)... I no longer feel safe in the area/home I live in, and I am genuinely afraid of him appearing again, the only solace I feel is that if I move very far away from here and NEVER interact with the people that caused my trauma.