Throughout the last 2 years I have been completely alone at college. There are thousands of people who are my college (might be giving away where I go but oh well) and I haven’t made a single friend. In year 12 my college had made a timetable more crammed up so you were in lessons with no study periods between so everyone would go home after class. We were all sat with desks apart with masks on most the time so it was hard to socialise in the first place, not to mention there were seating plans and most people already had a friendship group from day one. There was also 3 months of online learning where I ended up just staring at a screen and not interacting the entire time. The end of year 12 came and I honestly think I spoke to one or two people that whole year. I tried talking to people from class chats online to try make things easier for myself and they didn’t seem to go anywhere. I’m now in year 13 with only a few months to go and I honestly feel so much worse about it. Last year I didn’t have the stress of having to deal with mocks or anything and things were bearable but year 13 has been nothing but a nightmare. I’ve definitely tried speaking to more people around me but it often feels forced and most the time I’m just ignored as most people seem more interested in the friends they have already. It’s to the point where teachers are coming around calling people out on ignoring me in group discussions and it honestly makes me feel way more awkward than I already felt. I’ve tried texting people more this year but it’s the same thing over and over. I’m left on delivered for days, I get boring replies and I’m only spoken to when people are desperate for homework. With my timetable being normal this year, with study periods being between lessons, I’m finding myself just going home everyday between lessons since I’m a few minutes away from where I live because I have nobody to hang out with. I couldn’t even tell you where my colleges common room or cafe or anything is. I’m at the point where I’m wondering if I want to even go to uni anymore because I really don’t think I’ll manage spending another 3 years of my life studying like this.