Recently I started year 13 (17M) and I still haven't made any friends. There's a couple of people who I'm friendly to but we only wave or say hi when we see each other around.
I've been in this position since starting college last year. Since summer 2022, everything has felt like a blur but it's also been the most difficult period of my life having this kind of deep loneliness. I keep thinking I'm in some kind of dream and I'm gonna wake up and none of this has actually happened. Starting college, I didn't really know anyone as most people who went to my secondary stayed on for sixth form, but I knew I wanted a new start somewhere else.
For most of year 12 I spent most of my free periods and break times studying or eating lunch alone, which feels shameful to admit. There's some advice in places about giving up and just focusing on your studying but this doesn't seem a good idea as you just want someone to hang out with, make memories with, experience growing up etc. Plus I know I can't ignore this as I think about it all the time and it really consumes you. The few people I have met at extra curricular things have seemed surprised when I said I don't really hang out with anyone.
Despite this I've been trying to keep going and doing things on my own for at least some comfort, like going to the gym, bike rides, self-improvement as much as I can including in the summer that's just passed. However the reality is that this is going to just keep going on unless I break out of it, but I feel so helpless.
Has anyone been in any similar situations and got any advice? Thank you so much.