It doesn't make sense (poem)

I am awake but my brain has half drifted
to another place
I see a bed and no room
An aliens hand on my arm
Hear a voice in my head
Stop stop
The image fades away
My body reacts
It makes no sense
I go to sleep
I see me on a bed
A man is there though I don't see him
He tries kissing me
So I move away
He is behind me
His trousers pulled down
It hurts and his friends are watching
I wake up it makes no sense
Asleep again I see two guys
I know they're bad I try to run
They catch me they knock me down
They are on top it hurts and it
Makes No sense
I am awake
In a dream I am at home
The alien sits next to me
A label is tucked into the back of my pj's
His hand doesn't stop
Moving further down
Fingers inside of me
I'm scared and uncomfortable
It makes no sense
Then i am once again asleep
Taken by a family I have never seen
In a room I don't know
A man in the family
It isn't very clear
Walking to another room now
To see the presents he bought
Four small play tents for me and his kids
Standing I hold a Teddy that is out of my sight
I try to act normal I feel so sad
My down there hurts
It makes no sense
I wake up
Now I'm still sad
I feel like a child
I feel unsafe
My brain feels stuck in the dream
It makes no sense
I'm scared of the next time
Of what I will see
And whether it will start to make more sense