Keeping notes of everything I say

Listen- I know in your culture divorce is bad, but that’s ABUSE, and staying in an abusive relationship with someone that holds you at knife point is EXTREMELY DANGEROUS. For your own safety.

If you had kids with such an abusive man, those kids would also become unsafe, and also would witness their mother being abused. This man, I’m sorry to say - is awful.

I am SO SO SORRY you have to go through this, you don’t deserve it. But it won’t stop unless you leave

That last part, be safe and take care. I don’t know why it’s made me so emotional. I LITERALLY have tears in my eyes as I write this. I can’t remember the last time someone actually asked me how I was or put me first

It’s uncanny you mention this. He knows how maternal I am and how I would love to have children. A few weeks ago he said he’d hate to have kids with me. After a awful day, I explained the reason why I push him away and can’t easily open upto him is because he uses it as leverage. And gave the above example. He said I said the same to him. The difference was I explained WHY I can’t have children with him - I don’t want them growing up watching me get hit or negative toxic vibes. Whereas his intention was pain. And he seems to think it’s an eye for an eye. He’s also revising for his exams. And my word! The whole world needs to revolve around him. He has time when he’s revising for golf, bbq’s, his brother, snooker, football. But when I ask for something, revision becomes important again.