Hello TSR,
Not sure which forum to post my query to. I hope this one is okay!!
So, recently I've been talking to this girl! I really like her, she is nice and funny and cute, she has the most wonderful smile and everything! But I as usual went and ruined it by being incredibly awkward and weird. Just to clarify, I am autistic, that probably doesn't help my social anxiety.
What happened was, things were going great. We had agreed to go to a Musical together and she gave me her phone number and then in the evening she texted me and we talked back and forth for a while until she stopped, perfectly acceptable. It was late evening!
Then the next morning, we sat on the bus together as we had done frequently. I asked her how she was etc and we talked. I then said something I thought was a bit weird "Did you sleep well?", Perhaps an overstep of the mark. 🤦*♂️ She said "Alright" and asked me how I slept etc. Then later on, I made my big mistake!!
I had seen she was in the other room and I went over to say Hi and I asked if I could sit next to her, she said yes, but that she was trying to do some work and didn't want to be distracted. I didn't connect the dots, I could tell the social conventions. We talked a little and then she went to the work. I sat there doing nothing awkwardly for a minute and then moved to the otherside of her. And took out my laptop and started to do some work. I glanced over at her and she was sending a long text message, I immediately panicked that it was about me. I know very egotistical of me but it could have. I'd have hated to be making a fool of myself around her and then so I left and said "I'm sorry, I have to go, this is weird. I'm so sorry" and then left. I sent her a text message later that evening saying sorry again and that I didn't want to get in her way. She saw it this morning and hasn't responded, she also hasn't spoke to me or looked at me like she did since. What do I do?