Original post by Kooler-Aid129These blogs have no structure that I intend to employ.
I am using TSR as a way to blog for my own personal use, feel free to observe the changes I talk about on here, I will provide necessary context, and remove anythnig too personal.
Monday 12th June 2023, 14:03.
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As of now I am currently doing my gcses, I am struggling with a certain [REDACTED] thing I don't want to mention here but the [REDACTED] serves as a personal symbol so I know what I am talking about. My and my dad intend to move somewhere else, {parents are already divorced} I hope this helps change my environment although I will have a deep regret leaving my mum in regards to my primary home. I am underperforming in some of my exams to being in alot of bad habits and a lack of purpose.
I intend to change this, I saw a video on deep breathing and meditation, it seems to help me find some mental clarity. I'm trying to reflect on who I am and my actions impacting my future.
I hope my situation regarding [REDACTED] gets better. It got worse due to not taking action to change it, my ways of taking action are through meditation and reflection before I start to become lazy and delve into instant gratification.
My dad is really supportive, so is my mum but me and her have too much conflict, hence why I will move away but still see her and see if our relationship will improve that way.
I believe through conversation and hard work with my dads guidance, stuff will become better.
I am greatful for this website for being so accessible
I am greatful for my freinds
I love my parents
All this struggle is great, I get to be put on a better path, because I am willing to reflect.
21:50
I am starting to watch more videos on religion that seemingly give me hope for a better future, where I do not worry excessively and start to employ a better lifestyle involving love and care for others.
I did get a good amount of studying in too.
I have been struggling with my breathing, my chest hurts and my bones are feeling quite fragile, keep hearing pops and all sorts, alot of tightness too.
regardless, I will pray soon, take care of myself. and sooner or later go to sleep.
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Tuesday 13th June 2023, 11:34
Watching some religious talks are helping me ground myself, still having some chest issues and bones still feeling unsteady. Got to go to a music intervention in abit. I will eat, then cold shower, then pray, get my bag ready. I will meditate and do some deep breathing soon.
Despite me struggling in some of my exams, I know I can retake exams, I have my parents and school to ask for support.
Actually I could go on the treadmill, might do that.
Ate my food, went on treadmill - gotta get some water, some work to do - then to my intervention.
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Thursday 15th June 2023, 15:16
Wanted to keep and update, I do feel extremely sluggish and have limited will power, I am really reliant on having cold showers to give me will power to do something.
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