i just hate my life now, i dont want to put up with this anymore, im just going to go to bed and try and block everything out, i cant even phone CAMHS because my phones dead and i cant use my mobile...it almost feels like everything goes against me,
night night, hope everyone has a good weekend...i will prob be back on monday if all is ok
I want her back goddammit I want her back Why did she have to go? I want her back! I don't want to go to camp on my own. I want to phone her and chat about what to take. I can't even get myself to pack because I can't face going without her. I want her back!!!!!
Becki hun, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time of it. A belated Happy Birthday to you, by the way. This is all just a completely normal reaction to something horrible and unfair that's happened, and I wish I could help, or at least say something helpful, but I can't really. But I'm here if you want to talk or vent.
Becki, I second what Hannah says. Sadly, only time makes these things more bearable, but even time cannot heal the pain. It's nearly 4 years since my best friend died and it still hurts a lot but it's easier than the first year
thank you all. I just miss her so much. I think I'm going to go to bed now because I'm worn out. I won't be on for a few days but I'm coming home on Tuesday ready for the funeral on Wednesday so I'll probably come online then. If not then next Saturday. Sorry I've been so rubbish with supporting you all recently. I wish I was there for you all more but please know I am thinking of you all lots even though I haven't been posting replies that much and I am really sorry! for everyone. Hope you're ok Hannah xxx
thank you all. I just miss her so much. I think I'm going to go to bed now because I'm worn out. I won't be on for a few days but I'm coming home on Tuesday ready for the funeral on Wednesday so I'll probably come online then. If not then next Saturday. Sorry I've been so rubbish with supporting you all recently. I wish I was there for you all more but please know I am thinking of you all lots even though I haven't been posting replies that much and I am really sorry! for everyone. Hope you're ok Hannah xxx
I don't think I am, really.
"The best way we can honour the dead is to live our lives as they would have wished to." Hope the funeral goes okay, if we don't talk to you.
I'm annoyed. I found this dress which I could wear to the boy's leaving do, asked mum if i could use her debit card, she wanted to see the dress, so I showed her and she said 'no way. it's slutty.' i'm really annoyed.
I'm ok I guess. Fed up, tired, wasting my life, annoyed with family....the norm! Just want things to be perfect for once. I'm bored of not having school work to do aswell. Wish I had something to do with my time but I can't get a job anywhere
I'm tired - i should revise for my exams but i really cant. I have no motivation - its my last chance to pass aswell and its all ive ever wanted to do!! I need o stop messing around - i have to go see my consultant on monday and im really upset and scared.