I don't think my brain is equipped to deal with these feelings, I feel like I'm going crazy. If I don't start to feel better soon, bad things are going to start happening which will make everything so much worse. I sense that my boyfriend needs space from me and is losing patience, and as much as I understand how hard it must be to deal with me, it's so hurtful. He's going home this weekend, and I don't know how I'm going to cope. I want to sedate myself so I don't have to be awake, but I know I can't do that. I wish someone could tell me exactly what to do.