I flunked AS with terrible grades but managed to get into A2, hoping that I'll pull myself together and revise right away to get better results. I kept my resolution and I still failed a majority of my exams in January A2. Now I'm keeping my few C grades and retaking the rest in summer but that ****ed up too. My English teacher incorrectly confirmed a coursework retake but I want to do the actual written examination from AS in summer. Now I have to pay another £18 to withdraw and enter the correct exam. I'm absolutely demotivated to do anything because of all this let down, I cannot adjust at all. I'm interested in doing something in media/film/creative writing/English/journalism. I hate my college, the journey, the teachers, the students (even thuogh I have some mates they aren't really friends, they are just people I talk to we share no common interests or anything). The college has an above average reputation on paper and seemed like an excellent choice when applying, but it's full of pretentious philistines. I don't even know why I'm in college, it feels as if I'm doing this to please someone else, or just to fulfill other people's expectation that college to uni is the only way to become sucessful. What do I do? Should I go to uni? Should I apply for an apprenticeship? Should I start all over?