Hi guys! I hope you're all well. Quite a few people have posted here recently in the same boat as me - I suppose it's inevitable it being September.
Anyway, I think I can now officially join this thread without jinxing things =/ So I met a guy on the last day of July and hit it off so well, we've been meeting up all summer more and more (he works as a TA so he had the time), basically acting like a couple, and I finally had the 'conversation' (of sorts) last weekend about me going away.
Because I'm going to France. Not just France, the absolute South of France
. And I can't get out of it because it's for my stupid bloody degree.
I go on the 25th and tbh today I've been having a bad day feeling stressed and teary...as it gets closer I just want to go less and find it harder to leave him cheerfully. He's such a good person though and is always making sure I'm alright so I talk to him but at the same time, I can be such an optimistic person and I've been so cheerful all summer, I don't want to just bare all and be like 'yeah I'm completely depressed at the thought of going'.
It doesn't help that this is the first proper 'relationship' I've been in since I was at school. Last summer I had a fling and was in such a mess when I went back to uni, I didn't care 10% as much about that guy as I do this one, we have such a connection, it's not something I've experienced before, but I'm scared that so much time apart will prove it too hard to maintain
I mean he might come to see me over October half term and we're going to call/text/email etc but still..
I guess, it's normal nerves really...about being really bad at my job and at making friends and speaking the language....made worse by the prospect of not only leaving behind friends/family but also
him Gosh, sorry for the rant.