I don't understand how people do it, I would like to do physics due to an interest yet I'm **** at maths, my GCSE in maths is diabolical. I'm doing engineering as well which requires maths! Every forum I sign up to, I get discouraged and made to feel like an idiot.
I want to follow a career in science yet maths and science go together, I feel like a spaz.
I was always so weirdo at school, I even had to have a brain scan and hearing tests because I day dreamed too much and apparently not responding.
Not only that, I have some intense rivalry with my cousin, and if I failed, he would know and laugh. His family has always succeeded whereas my family fails. My dad isn't intelligent and my mum is from some 3rd world country slum!
How do you all keep succeeding in life here people? I actually don't see life worth living if I'm going to work in some menial labour job like a press operator it isn't pretty! No, I'm not suicidal but logically, if my future is going to be stuck in a dead end job doing the same stupid **** over and over again? This is my worst fear, being a mong!
No matter what I do, two steps forward, one step back and then a **** load of bad news.