I applied to Cambridge last year and was interviewed at Kings College Cambridge after years of dreaming of getting in and working really hard. I did this despite being from a very low income background, with no academic parents or support. However, I messed up in my interview really badly because of how nervous and unprepared I was. I have obviously read quite a lot (applied for English Literature) but I hadn't read all of the classical texts they probably wanted me to, didn't know how to respond to that environment and just kept saying the first thing that came to my head rather than thinking about the question. I didn't act like myself at all! I'm at Kings College London now and although I like it, I still feel like the Cambridge course was the dream because of how comprehensive it was, and I'm constantly self-deprecating myself because I feel like I was just so unintelligent in the interview. I keep thinking about how much happier I would be at a smaller college like Newnham College Cambridge, which I had wanted to apply to in the first place but was discouraged by someone who said it wasn't as good. I don't know how to get over Cambridge because I think I would probably get rejected if I applied again due to how nervous i get in interviews, but I find it so hard to let go of because I worked so hard and got 4 A* at a-level and have wanted it for so long.