Could I be having Aspergers?
I researched into the subject more than a year ago, and never had seen such correlation.
There are my possible symptoms: I struggle with walking normally, usually moving my hands involuntarily. I walk fast and do everything fast, from drawing to speech, which frequently results in undesired effect of people getting annoyed at lack of understanding of me. In my lifetime I never had a friend or any form of friendship, I spend hours studying and reading, and I am very annoyed when someone breaks my monotony (I have to agree I feel lonely at times, but I don't want to mix with people that aren't receiving on the same wavelength). I am over expressive, making odd expressions to force an emotion. And over emotional, any simple rise of voice makes me delirious. I rarely smile, and struggle to understand emotions of others, I tend to annoy people not really knowing what with. I am terribly afraid of everything, going outside, dark, even things like plugs or lamps. I have relatively high IQ (it was an internet test, so I shouldn't take it too seriously), and do well on academic level (not as good on exams). I have strong obsessions on interesting topics, when I am in a mood of knowing something, I search everything about it and memorise, could be useful in an academic area, but my fan of interest doesn't overlap with my curriculum. I defensively have Misophonia, which is activation of violent flight of fight response when hearing specific sound or motion (it is usually people eating), it makes me twitch and become very aggressive. (To such extends I started considering jumping out of a car!)
So, can it be Aspergers, or maybe my odd, rare personality (I am an INTJ).
Also. Where can I get a diagnosis.
My parents are quite orthodox and are against any form of freakery, which they call for people of mental/ethnical/religious minority. How can I tell them to not shout at me when I struggle publicly?