I'm a slut.

I don't know how else to put it but I'm feeling a bit **** atm and I just want to vent. I have meaningless sex with men. In my teens I suffered with depression and low-self esteem. I had a somewhat bad relationship (which my parents never really knew about) and I had to deal with the aftermath of it more or less alone. I still suffer from low moods and I'll have sex with people as a way of temporarily lifting my mood. Sometimes I'll feel guilty afterwards, other times I just won't give a ****.

I'm really into the whole 'rape fantasy' thing and, at uni, I'd go on nights-out and get ****ed by total strangers who I never saw or spoke to again. I had quite a conservative upbringing and my close friends don't even know about the stuff I get up to. They'd be disgusted with me if they did. For that reason, I'd also say that I'm not a slut in an obvious or conventional sense i.e. I don't dress revealingly or go about flirting outrageously with men and I'm generally discreet about the things I do but when I see a guy I find attractive I'll think about having sex with him. I've slept with two guys that I work with. We all sort of get along as friends and have a good laugh with each other. I like the fact that I get along well with both but I'm not tied down to either. I don't even feel emotionally attached to the people I sleep with, I just like the way they make me feel when we're together.

I find it relatively easy to build relationships with both men and women. I've had relationships with decent men but I lie about the way I am. I pretend that I'm a good, well brought-up girl when I've been acting like a slut. I could never bring myself to tell the truth because they'd most-likely dump me on the spot.

I only ever really discussed things with one or two people I knew at uni. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost. I realize that anyone reading this will have nil respect for me but if you have any constructive advice on how to get my **** together I'd appreciate it.

I've done things I'm not proud but I chose not to include them in the OP, which I wrote out rather quickly anyway. For instance, I had sex with a male friend, who I had a long-standing crush on, even though he had a girlfriend. It was after he confessed that he liked me. I'm driven by sexual lust more than I am restrained by morality which is never good.
I haven't cheated on any of my partners but I've definitely been tempted. As much as I'd like to be in a relationship right now, I think it's best that I don't enter one. I honestly question whether or not I'd be able to stay faithful. It sounds like a terrible thing to say but it's the truth.

Don't know whether your being serious or not.

I don't know how else to put it but I'm feeling a bit **** atm and I just want to vent. I have meaningless sex with men. In my teens I suffered with depression and low-self esteem. I had a somewhat bad relationship (which my parents never really knew about) and I had to deal with the aftermath of it more or less alone. I still suffer from low moods and I'll have sex with people as a way of temporarily lifting my mood. Sometimes I'll feel guilty afterwards, other times I just won't give a ****.

I'm really into the whole 'rape fantasy' thing and, at uni, I'd go on nights-out and get ****ed by total strangers who I never saw or spoke to again. I had quite a conservative upbringing and my close friends don't even know about the stuff I get up to. They'd be disgusted with me if they did. For that reason, I'd also say that I'm not a slut in an obvious or conventional sense i.e. I don't dress revealingly or go about flirting outrageously with men and I'm generally discreet about the things I do but when I see a guy I find attractive I'll think about having sex with him. I've slept with two guys that I work with. We all sort of get along as friends and have a good laugh with each other. I like the fact that I get along well with both but I'm not tied down to either. I don't even feel emotionally attached to the people I sleep with, I just like the way they make me feel when we're together.

I find it relatively easy to build relationships with both men and women. I've had relationships with decent men but I lie about the way I am. I pretend that I'm a good, well brought-up girl when I've been acting like a slut. I could never bring myself to tell the truth because they'd most-likely dump me on the spot.

I only ever really discussed things with one or two people I knew at uni. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost. I realize that anyone reading this will have nil respect for me but if you have any constructive advice on how to get my **** together I'd appreciate it.

Most people on here will tell you that there's nothing wrong with what you're doing and that as long as it's safe and consensual you should just let your hair down.

But if you're using sex as a way of coping with mental health problems then that is not healthy. Casual sex has been demonstrated to actively cause mental health problems like depression, low self esteem and even increased suicidal ideation - as opposed to just being linked to them - and I can't see any good coming from abusing sex like a drug in this way when you're already suffering emotionally. It also sounds as if you get a high from putting yourself in vulnerable situations where you could be taken advantage of and come to harm.

I would suggest you try to exert some control over your impulses, deal with your problems, and then try to maintain a healthier attitude towards sex. I'm sure you would be much happier in the long run.

My opinion is based on my experience of doing psychiatry as a medical student and learning to understand mental health.

I don't even know the slightest about you, only if you were to let me take an hour long history of you I would get an idea of what the underlying problem is. And then I'm not a psychiatrist. I'm just someone who has studied the theory, learned some skills and seen 2 months of consultant practice. Maybe you don't even have a problem at all? So my opinion is already biased and inaccurate, to some degree false. What you have had said however, a lot of the phrases and words are red flags. This is only correct if you truly feel that way too. Without anyone seeing you how you respond to certain questions, how you are as a person, not even professionals will be able to form a conclusive opinion. Hence I try to tell you that the GP will give you access to some people that really can help you. Everyone will take you seriously.
If you wonder what these red flags are, I have had underlined them previously. I know you will want to know anyway what I think. It can really be a wide spectrum of mental health issues or again NOTHING being wrong. Clinical depression, generalized anxiety disorders, bereavement, self harm. There might have been something in your childhood or at birth, something going down the family that made you cope with your feelings in that specific way. CBT or psychotherapy can explore these issues.

I know you dont want to but you can talk to me anonymously too.

I still don't see a problem with this, personally. If this guy's going to cheat on his girlfriend, that's on him, not you.

I agree with Knugs about seeing your GP though. Some of what you've written corresponds to symptoms of borderline personality disorder (there are all sorts of issues here - for instance, many psychiatrists believe that it's not a real disorder at all, more of an amalgamation of symptoms that commonly occur together). I wouldn't take this possibility too seriously, but if you really feel as though something's wrong with you, this could potentially be the answer.

Probably the most sensible thing to do is talk to a qualified therapist openly. Even if you don't have any such issues, it'll still almost certainly be a very helpful step to take.

I think you are a Gemini. They tend to sleep around and find it difficult to maintain a steady relationship

Thanks for your advice. I'm not sure whether I could speak to a GP about it. It'd be extremely difficult. I'll take it into consideration though.

am a Gemini.

I don't know how else to put it but I'm feeling a bit **** atm and I just want to vent. I have meaningless sex with men. In my teens I suffered with depression and low-self esteem. I had a somewhat bad relationship (which my parents never really knew about) and I had to deal with the aftermath of it more or less alone. I still suffer from low moods and I'll have sex with people as a way of temporarily lifting my mood. Sometimes I'll feel guilty afterwards, other times I just won't give a ****.

I'm really into the whole 'rape fantasy' thing and, at uni, I'd go on nights-out and get ****ed by total strangers who I never saw or spoke to again. I had quite a conservative upbringing and my close friends don't even know about the stuff I get up to. They'd be disgusted with me if they did. For that reason, I'd also say that I'm not a slut in an obvious or conventional sense i.e. I don't dress revealingly or go about flirting outrageously with men and I'm generally discreet about the things I do but when I see a guy I find attractive I'll think about having sex with him. I've slept with two guys that I work with. We all sort of get along as friends and have a good laugh with each other. I like the fact that I get along well with both but I'm not tied down to either. I don't even feel emotionally attached to the people I sleep with, I just like the way they make me feel when we're together.

I find it relatively easy to build relationships with both men and women. I've had relationships with decent men but I lie about the way I am. I pretend that I'm a good, well brought-up girl when I've been acting like a slut. I could never bring myself to tell the truth because they'd most-likely dump me on the spot.

I only ever really discussed things with one or two people I knew at uni. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost. I realize that anyone reading this will have nil respect for me but if you have any constructive advice on how to get my **** together I'd appreciate it.

I don't know how else to put it but I'm feeling a bit **** atm and I just want to vent. I have meaningless sex with men. In my teens I suffered with depression and low-self esteem. I had a somewhat bad relationship (which my parents never really knew about) and I had to deal with the aftermath of it more or less alone. I still suffer from low moods and I'll have sex with people as a way of temporarily lifting my mood. Sometimes I'll feel guilty afterwards, other times I just won't give a ****.

I'm really into the whole 'rape fantasy' thing and, at uni, I'd go on nights-out and get ****ed by total strangers who I never saw or spoke to again. I had quite a conservative upbringing and my close friends don't even know about the stuff I get up to. They'd be disgusted with me if they did. For that reason, I'd also say that I'm not a slut in an obvious or conventional sense i.e. I don't dress revealingly or go about flirting outrageously with men and I'm generally discreet about the things I do but when I see a guy I find attractive I'll think about having sex with him. I've slept with two guys that I work with. We all sort of get along as friends and have a good laugh with each other. I like the fact that I get along well with both but I'm not tied down to either. I don't even feel emotionally attached to the people I sleep with, I just like the way they make me feel when we're together.

I find it relatively easy to build relationships with both men and women. I've had relationships with decent men but I lie about the way I am. I pretend that I'm a good, well brought-up girl when I've been acting like a slut. I could never bring myself to tell the truth because they'd most-likely dump me on the spot.

I only ever really discussed things with one or two people I knew at uni. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost. I realize that anyone reading this will have nil respect for me but if you have any constructive advice on how to get my **** together I'd appreciate it.

I don't know how else to put it but I'm feeling a bit **** atm and I just want to vent. I have meaningless sex with men. In my teens I suffered with depression and low-self esteem. I had a somewhat bad relationship (which my parents never really knew about) and I had to deal with the aftermath of it more or less alone. I still suffer from low moods and I'll have sex with people as a way of temporarily lifting my mood. Sometimes I'll feel guilty afterwards, other times I just won't give a ****.

I'm really into the whole 'rape fantasy' thing and, at uni, I'd go on nights-out and get ****ed by total strangers who I never saw or spoke to again. I had quite a conservative upbringing and my close friends don't even know about the stuff I get up to. They'd be disgusted with me if they did. For that reason, I'd also say that I'm not a slut in an obvious or conventional sense i.e. I don't dress revealingly or go about flirting outrageously with men and I'm generally discreet about the things I do but when I see a guy I find attractive I'll think about having sex with him. I've slept with two guys that I work with. We all sort of get along as friends and have a good laugh with each other. I like the fact that I get along well with both but I'm not tied down to either. I don't even feel emotionally attached to the people I sleep with, I just like the way they make me feel when we're together.

I find it relatively easy to build relationships with both men and women. I've had relationships with decent men but I lie about the way I am. I pretend that I'm a good, well brought-up girl when I've been acting like a slut. I could never bring myself to tell the truth because they'd most-likely dump me on the spot.

I only ever really discussed things with one or two people I knew at uni. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost. I realize that anyone reading this will have nil respect for me but if you have any constructive advice on how to get my **** together I'd appreciate it.

I don't know how else to put it but I'm feeling a bit **** atm and I just want to vent. I have meaningless sex with men. In my teens I suffered with depression and low-self esteem. I had a somewhat bad relationship (which my parents never really knew about) and I had to deal with the aftermath of it more or less alone. I still suffer from low moods and I'll have sex with people as a way of temporarily lifting my mood. Sometimes I'll feel guilty afterwards, other times I just won't give a ****.

I'm really into the whole 'rape fantasy' thing and, at uni, I'd go on nights-out and get ****ed by total strangers who I never saw or spoke to again. I had quite a conservative upbringing and my close friends don't even know about the stuff I get up to. They'd be disgusted with me if they did. For that reason, I'd also say that I'm not a slut in an obvious or conventional sense i.e. I don't dress revealingly or go about flirting outrageously with men and I'm generally discreet about the things I do but when I see a guy I find attractive I'll think about having sex with him. I've slept with two guys that I work with. We all sort of get along as friends and have a good laugh with each other. I like the fact that I get along well with both but I'm not tied down to either. I don't even feel emotionally attached to the people I sleep with, I just like the way they make me feel when we're together.

I find it relatively easy to build relationships with both men and women. I've had relationships with decent men but I lie about the way I am. I pretend that I'm a good, well brought-up girl when I've been acting like a slut. I could never bring myself to tell the truth because they'd most-likely dump me on the spot.

I only ever really discussed things with one or two people I knew at uni. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost. I realize that anyone reading this will have nil respect for me but if you have any constructive advice on how to get my **** together I'd appreciate it.

I don't know how else to put it but I'm feeling a bit **** atm and I just want to vent. I have meaningless sex with men. In my teens I suffered with depression and low-self esteem. I had a somewhat bad relationship (which my parents never really knew about) and I had to deal with the aftermath of it more or less alone. I still suffer from low moods and I'll have sex with people as a way of temporarily lifting my mood. Sometimes I'll feel guilty afterwards, other times I just won't give a ****.

I'm really into the whole 'rape fantasy' thing and, at uni, I'd go on nights-out and get ****ed by total strangers who I never saw or spoke to again. I had quite a conservative upbringing and my close friends don't even know about the stuff I get up to. They'd be disgusted with me if they did. For that reason, I'd also say that I'm not a slut in an obvious or conventional sense i.e. I don't dress revealingly or go about flirting outrageously with men and I'm generally discreet about the things I do but when I see a guy I find attractive I'll think about having sex with him. I've slept with two guys that I work with. We all sort of get along as friends and have a good laugh with each other. I like the fact that I get along well with both but I'm not tied down to either. I don't even feel emotionally attached to the people I sleep with, I just like the way they make me feel when we're together.

I find it relatively easy to build relationships with both men and women. I've had relationships with decent men but I lie about the way I am. I pretend that I'm a good, well brought-up girl when I've been acting like a slut. I could never bring myself to tell the truth because they'd most-likely dump me on the spot.

I only ever really discussed things with one or two people I knew at uni. Right now I'm feeling a little bit lost. I realize that anyone reading this will have nil respect for me but if you have any constructive advice on how to get my **** together I'd appreciate it.