So I'm a guy, i'm 19 years old and without tooting my horn i'm quite attractive.
I was a fugly little spawn up until around 17, when I began growing and lifting weights progressively. Now i'm like 6'1 and have washboard abs, a nice face etc. I get looks on the road a fair bit and when I go on nights out, girls are incredibly forthcoming (grinding against me when I don't even approach etc) although usually drunk.
My problem is though, that when I was younger I got bullied a lot and i've internalized a feelings of self hatred and insecurity. I still feel like the same ugly little boy and lack the confidence and agression men my age need to do well. I can never be sure when a girl likes me, even when they're throwing themselves at me I still don't really want to make a move as I assume it's only as they're really drunk.
I've had a few opportunities to loose my virginity but I suppose waiting so long has led me to want ideal circumstances to loose it under if you know what I mean. One time there was this house part and I pulled the most attractive girl there, but when we went upstairs I didn't make the move and we just spooned all night.
Anyway to the point now, a few days ago I was at this festival and I got about 4 girls numbers. I'm thinking of taking some of them for dates and seeing where things go, hopefully we end up doing the deed, I'm kind of sick of being a virgin and want to just get rid of it already but every time I actually get close I tense up and start worrying n ****.
Any tips ?