23/05/18 - FP4 Exam Summary :Reflection: It didn’t really hit me until I opened todays paper that this is it… this is my one chance to show my worth, and it decides my future, it all rests on a few exam papers and if I have a bad day that’s it.. I don’t get what I want.
This realisation as I opened the paper wasn’t a good way to start, I was thrown off for a while before I could kind of get into it, this resulted in me getting even the first question wrong which isn’t ideal.
I worked through questions 2-4 alright and then got to 5 and just couldn’t do the first part, I was getting awkward algebraic fractions which looked like they cancelled but I wasn’t confident enough to cancel them down (which in reflection was stupid) so I left them as big huge fractions, I then had to sub these fractions into other equations and it took A G E S.
The rest of question 5 and 6 were okay but then I only had 20 minutes to complete the last (what I thought was 2) questions. So I was rushing these a lot and then midway through question 8 I realised I actually wasn’t at the end and there was also a question 9 on this paper.
So with 5 minutes remaining I had 17 marks worth of question left to do and safe to say I chucked most of those marks away as I was just panicking so much.. it was the most horrible feeling, I felt so sick at one point I thought I was going to have to run out of the room. Then it was all over, I was mid question and in tears.
It’s just so horrific that all the work I put in resulted in this, like I tried so hard and it just turns out to be a shambles, all I’ve really revised for is todays exam so now I’m just left thinking how much serious work I’m going to have to put in now to even stand a chance of getting the grades I need, when really all I want is another shot at FP4.
Predictions: Judging by the unofficial mark scheme I reckon I got about 45 marks on that paper which going off standard grade boundaries is about a D, C at absolute best. (Plus the grade boundaries won’t be lower than usual because in hindsight it was a fairly average paper)
I know people will come out and say “I’m sure it wasn’t as bad as you think,” that’s all I’ve heard all day, but I’m not having any of it. I’m usually really good at predicting what I got on Maths papers, and I’m usually only a few marks off.
So this means to get the A that I need in Further Maths I need an A on my other 2 papers, I can’t slip up and even get a B on one of them because that will put me into a B overall. The pressure is more than ever now, I was really hoping all the work I put in to this one would pay off, but it really didn’t.
(Sorry this is depressing, but this is the ugly truth of today) Tags: