Hi guys, I need a bit of advice. I'm sorry this might be a long one but ill keep it as short as possible.
So basically there is this girl I really like at uni and she lives in the same halls as me (I'm also a girl btw and she also is a lesbian
) Anyway the other night she came over to watch orange is the new black with me because I had never seen it before - and yes, I know I'm late to the party lmao
Last night I invited her over to watch it again with me and she couldn't because she had just got back from rugby practice and it was late so I said "aw okay maybe another time!" She responded with "I'll ask the girls when they're free next" - as in asking the girls in her flat. I was so confused because I made it clear to her that I just wanted it to be us two so I responded with "Oh I was meaning just us two lol"
She then replied asking why and I said as a joke "well there isn't enough room for all 5 of us on my bed lmao" and then "In all seriousness though I just really liked spending time with just you the other night and would like to do it again" and she asked why again and at this point, I was getting a bit frustrated because it was obvious what I was trying to say.
I then said "I just want to start spending a bit more time where it's just the two of us" and she said, "In what context?" I was even more confused here because it was so OBVIOUS what context! She knew exactly what I was saying lmao so that's what I said "I think you know what context x"
She then responded with "CONFUSED!!! What context are you talking about?" At this point, I felt so backed into a corner. What do I even say to that? I felt like she knew what I was trying to say but it was like she wanted me to literally spell it out.
So finally I responded with "In a more than friends kind of context"
After a while, she responded with "I'm really taken back by that. I value our friendship too much and I can't see it becoming more than that tbh"
Now here's where I'm confused tbh. I was very openly flirting with her. It was becoming more and more apparent what I was trying to get at the longer the conversation went on (which was for about an hour) yet she apparently didn't get until I literally told her. But she isn't stupid and she's had girlfriends before. I'm certain she knew what I was trying to say the whole conversation and my flatmate who I was with even told me that she would have known straight away what I was doing.
But now I feel so embarrassed and like a right idiot and now I don't know what to do. I didn't want to come straight out and tell her I liked her but I felt so backed into a corner and like I had no other choice. I just need some advice on this situation, maybe some insight into what it all sounds like from an outside perspective, and maybe what I should do now cause I feel a bit sh*t about it all lol.
If you read this far, thank you so much and I give you virtual hugs <3