Okay, so I feel kinda embarrassed even posting this on here but I've really fallen for my friend from Uni, we've known each other for a few years now. Her and her best mate who I lived with during Uni live about a hundred and fifty miles away and I'll go and see them like every month or so. I've always found her really attractive but the first few years I knew her I was just too shy, immature and clueless about women to try and tell her and to be honest, I'm really not the sort for flirting but I've made as much effort as I can the past few months. Always being very complimentary towards her, showing an interest in her life and family, dropping her messages. I was trying to be subtle and respectful, as bad as it sounds probably a little too much as she didn't even know I liked her. Whenever I go to my friend's house for the weekend me and her always sleep together in our friend's spare room, separate beds obviously, I always assumed she knew I liked her and to be honest I always liked the fact she trusted me enough to sleep in the same room with her but apparently she didn't even know I liked her. Anyway so her mate and her fiancé, who she met in the same house as me and her met and I'm also friends with, got married last weekend. I was a groomsman and she was a bridesmaid. I'll be honest, we all started drinking Prosecco at ten in the morning while we were getting changed at the wedding venue and I pretty much kept drinking for the whole day and I was really ****ed by the evening. This is really embarrassing but her family were guests at the evening reception and being ****ed and frankly quite stupid when I've had a drink I went up to her mum and for some reason thought it'd be a good idea to announce to her "I really fancy Ellie", incredibly her Mum was pretty agreeable to the whole thing. Anyway so I go over and tell my Friend later and she just assumed I was ****ed and just wanted to have sex with her. She politely declined and I just went and sat outside and felt sorry for myself for about an hour before going back to the AirBNB. I get back to there and message her at like two in the morning apologising, saying I could've handled the situation better but frankly I needed a drink to tell her how I really felt about her. We chatted for a while in the morning. Anyway so I message her best mate later and she tells me she just assumed I was drunk and wanted to sleep with her and she doesn't know I genuinely like her. So, her friend told me she's just not in right headspace right now which I'm worried might just be her way of sparing my feelings. Anyway, this is where we're at now. So, I could've just messaged her and told her how I feel but I decided I wanted to do things properly, we all went on holiday as a group in Greece before the wedding and she was reading some book and I was just chatting to her about whether she read a lot and what kind of things she read and she said she quite liked romance novels. So, here's my plan, I'm going to buy two tickets to go see the Rupaul's drag race convention in London and send them her in the mail with a letter telling her how I really feel. She knows it's really not my thing and it's not the kind of thing I'd usually do for someone so hopefully it'll show her how special she is to me, I'm going to say maybe she could go with a friend or her sister in the letter, obviously hoping she'll let me take her. I'm in two minds about whether this is a good idea as I feel it'll either be the sweetest thing anyone's ever done for her or alternatively make me look psychotic. Thanks for taking the time to read this and hopefully respond with advice