I’ve already talked to a lot of people about this yet I keep dwelling on it and I want to get over grieving it but I don’t think I can. Basically, I missed my cambridge offer this year. I’m aware I’m not the only person who’s ever gone through this as I’ve talked to other people on the same boat as me and I know it’s not the “end” of my life, of course that’d be very dramatic but I’m worried on how this will impact me if I don’t get over it soon enough. I got into my insurance which is still a pretty good university, yet I’m worried the attachment I hold towards cambridge will stop me from properly enjoying university and actually enjoying my studies. I feel like a failure. A lot happened in year 13 which made me overwhelmed and didn’t allow me to perform as well, but maybe I’m making excuses for myself? I want to forgive myself and let go because honestly its not the end of the world and i'm just a young person with a bruised ego but God I wish I had not messed this up. I can’t help but remind myself on what I missed out, had things turned out better and how good of an experience Cambridge would have been.Most importantly I felt as if i proved everyone who looked down on me, right. I depended my confidence on what other’s thought of me and honestly I feel ruined. I thought about retaking my A levels but everyone around me advised me to not risk it, and besides I’d be missing out on my scholarship if i don't just take my insurance place. This is so cringe and dramatic and I know that things aren’t as bad as they seem but I wish i could get over it already.