It kinda all started whne me and my best friend decided to go travelling together, once on the trip it turned out we had very different ideas of what we wanted to do and I was suffering from severe anxiety/panic attacks/depression during the trip which made me struggle to go out at night and I was constantly exhausted. Despite this we got to see so much but my ex bff spent the whole time being salty and moody. Since that trip our friendship had done a complete flip and became really toxic, like bitter comments and not being supportive etc. I thought maybe this was just a rough patch and we could probably talk it out. But one day I get this long text from her stating that she doesn’t wanna be friends anymore and attacking my personality without aknowleging anything she did to hurt me (the whole holiday she was basically angry at me for being mentally ill). I knew she didn’t wanna be friends due to my mental health rather than anything I’d said in the past as this was before we fell out. But she acted like it was because of other reasons probably to not look bad.
She unadded me on everything and blocked me on tik tok. Which I find kinda strange because it’s not like a breakup. And since this (6 months on) she’s been telling everyone and their mum about the situation and a lot of people have turned on me without hearing the full story, assuming I’ve been a horrible person to her. She even went to my old friend group to speak to them behind my back about me (they were on her side as I stopped speaking to them and were salty but it’s because they’d not treated me well over the time we were friends). Most recently, I find that some of her friends will request to follow me on Instagram out of the blue, it’s so strange and I’m not sure why they’re tryna follow me? Would anyone here know
Basically I just need general advice on how to handle the situation. I’m struggling to get over it and despite all this I just want everything to go back to how it was when we were best friends because no one’s ever “got me” as much as she did and it’s lost all my confidence in friendships.