I’m worried that this is micro-cheating

I’m worried that this is micro-cheating, and micro cheating is plain cheating for me

I was at the opticians. The optometrist was making conversation with me and asking about my career, goals etc. I responded and we were having a conversation. I found that to be very friendly and immediately liked him platonically as a person/optometrist. If I dig deeper into my feelings, being fully honest with myself with the hard truth, I think I liked him too. In the context of cheating strictly, that’s fine, as long as you don’t act upon it

Where the micro-cheating might’ve happened was when I was picking glasses. I always seek to be attentive and listen to people when they talk. A consequence of that, is that I look at people in the eyes and express emotion through my eyes. I was picking out glasses and I was stuck deciding between two particular ones. We were making conversation after that (he was a very kind optometrist, it’s a good quality), about which glasses look better on me, how I’m indicisive but he’s more indicisive than me, etc. I was looking into his his eyes and being attentive as I always do when I talk to a stranger for long periods of time. Then the vibe gradually changed. He started looking at me in the eyes too, but it didn’t feel platonic, it felt flirty. It’s not the act itself of looking into eyes, it’s the aura; maybe that’s not flirty, but I can’t find another word for it. If you compare how I was with the female worker there compared to the male worker, you would definitely find a difference in my behaviour in this moment; my behaviour with the optometrist being more friendly and the type eye contact

I can’t control what he does, I can only control what I do. However, I think my eye contact changed to a flirty gaze too

So to summarise: I formed a romantic emotional connection to thin, was extra friendly to this guy I was attracted to compared to the female worker, and we exchanged, uh, flirty looks? For about 2/3 minutes if you take away the interruptions

I don’t know if I’m overthinking the whole thing as I have overthinking tendencies. Please be honest with me

Six paragraphs and you failed to nention a partner, so on whom are you cheating?

My boyfriend

So if it was your bf who did this with an optician, you'd dump him???

I’m worried that this is micro-cheating, and micro cheating is plain cheating for me

I was at the opticians. The optometrist was making conversation with me and asking about my career, goals etc. I responded and we were having a conversation. I found that to be very friendly and immediately liked him platonically as a person/optometrist. If I dig deeper into my feelings, being fully honest with myself with the hard truth, I think I liked him too. In the context of cheating strictly, that’s fine, as long as you don’t act upon it

Where the micro-cheating might’ve happened was when I was picking glasses. I always seek to be attentive and listen to people when they talk. A consequence of that, is that I look at people in the eyes and express emotion through my eyes. I was picking out glasses and I was stuck deciding between two particular ones. We were making conversation after that (he was a very kind optometrist, it’s a good quality), about which glasses look better on me, how I’m indicisive but he’s more indicisive than me, etc. I was looking into his his eyes and being attentive as I always do when I talk to a stranger for long periods of time. Then the vibe gradually changed. He started looking at me in the eyes too, but it didn’t feel platonic, it felt flirty. It’s not the act itself of looking into eyes, it’s the aura; maybe that’s not flirty, but I can’t find another word for it. If you compare how I was with the female worker there compared to the male worker, you would definitely find a difference in my behaviour in this moment; my behaviour with the optometrist being more friendly and the type eye contact

I can’t control what he does, I can only control what I do. However, I think my eye contact changed to a flirty gaze too

So to summarise: I formed a romantic emotional connection to thin, was extra friendly to this guy I was attracted to compared to the female worker, and we exchanged, uh, flirty looks? For about 2/3 minutes if you take away the interruptions

I don’t know if I’m overthinking the whole thing as I have overthinking tendencies. Please be honest with me

Not dump, more like be upset and tell him to control himself more. I have high standards of loyalty- very hypocritical, I will be better. I will definitely reduce my male interactions now with anyone who isn’t a classmate or a coworker, the guilt can’t leave my mind

Assuming that this is all true (why would the optician himself fit your glasses?) then I genuinely feel sorry for your boyfriend. What do you do when he wakes up with morning wood? Interrogate him about his dreams?

I'm guessing your relationship must be very bland to develop such detailed fantasies about issues in it.

Not dump, more like be upset and tell him to control himself more. I have high standards of loyalty- very hypocritical, I will be better. I will definitely reduce my male interactions now with anyone who isn’t a classmate or a coworker, the guilt can’t leave my mind