I’m currently in sixth form and honestly am thinking of dropping out. Last year i quit half way through year 12, to change my A-levels and start fresh this year. Honestly I’m starting to think that academics just aren’t working well for me. For context I take Maths, Music Tech and Media. I tend to do fine in lessons, or at least get by. I struggle with reading a lot, and my GCSE English grades were poor. When it comes to coursework and revision in my own time, I’m perfectly fine and doing well, but as soon as it comes to formal testing I just can’t do it. Most of my teacher are assuming it’s lack of motivation or that I just don’t care, but i don’t know how to explain that I’m trying my best but getting pen to paper, processing all the information in a timed environment and the general atmosphere of testing is extremely difficult, especially as my college refuses to give accommodations for anything apart from final A-level exams. So when it comes to my first year mocks in a couple months, I won’t be given my necessary accommodations.
I don’t know, I’m just trying to figure out whether I should leave or not. I already have a job and would be able to switch from part-time to full-time very easily, whilst i look out for an apprenticeship in my desired field. I just feel that the things i’m being told to improve on to get through college, are actually just big parts of my autism that aren’t going to just “get better” and people are forgetting autism is a disability not a list if quirky traits i can ignore.
Some extra context
I am 18 so can legally leave college
I’m worried about the reaction from my family, seeing as i quit last year and went back to try again, i feel like i’ve already wasted a lot of time, so should i just stick through it and accept that the final grades aren’t going to be what anyone hoped
the difficulty with schedule and it no longer being 9-4 every day so not being able to follow routine (which is super important to me and my ability to function day to day)
I don’t have friends in college due to the restart, my friends are all from work or sports
I’m much more of a creative than an academic, i’m good at maths, but anything written work and essays, understanding and analysis just isn’t for me
my attendance is already pretty low (around 65%) but my ability to go in every day is just getting worse
if anyone here has any advice on getting through college it would be appreciated. I’d definitely like to have 3 a-levels at least to fall back on, but it’s just not looking likely i can stick this through with the current circumstances