Is my family toxic

i am a young teen
i always feel so tensed when I with my dad , he has anger issues and the most recent event - one day on new year , I went to my uncles house with family and my uncle gave me some snacks and I ate it and my dad after he came home he said "you looked like you went aboard with all the snacks you ate , people will think you are starved at home" and before that he told that he told me "you better study , you are not like the white kids here , they are white they can stay here and get any job , unlike us who are not white" , because i only got a grade 8 in my history mock , back to the food thing , i started crying cause i had enough and told him "i am never enough for you and you always find mistakes" , he started beating me and i said please don't do it and he didn't stop even my mum said stop and i left with tremors from crying and then he said sorry and he didn't mean it .................my mom-always tell me how ugly i am , how dark i am , how i am short , how i am fat , how my face looks bad all the time

i know telling all this makes them look like toxic but they love me

i am a young teen
i always feel so tensed when I with my dad , he has anger issues and the most recent event - one day on new year , I went to my uncles house with family and my uncle gave me some snacks and I ate it and my dad after he came home he said "you looked like you went aboard with all the snacks you ate , people will think you are starved at home" and before that he told that he told me "you better study , you are not like the white kids here , they are white they can stay here and get any job , unlike us who are not white" , because i only got a grade 8 in my history mock , back to the food thing , i started crying cause i had enough and told him "i am never enough for you and you always find mistakes" , he started beating me and i said please don't do it and he didn't stop even my mum said stop and i left with tremors from crying and then he said sorry and he didn't mean it .................my mom-always tell me how ugly i am , how dark i am , how i am short , how i am fat , how my face looks bad all the time

i know telling all this makes them look like toxic but they love me

i am a young teen
i always feel so tensed when I with my dad , he has anger issues and the most recent event - one day on new year , I went to my uncles house with family and my uncle gave me some snacks and I ate it and my dad after he came home he said "you looked like you went aboard with all the snacks you ate , people will think you are starved at home" and before that he told that he told me "you better study , you are not like the white kids here , they are white they can stay here and get any job , unlike us who are not white" , because i only got a grade 8 in my history mock , back to the food thing , i started crying cause i had enough and told him "i am never enough for you and you always find mistakes" , he started beating me and i said please don't do it and he didn't stop even my mum said stop and i left with tremors from crying and then he said sorry and he didn't mean it .................my mom-always tell me how ugly i am , how dark i am , how i am short , how i am fat , how my face looks bad all the time

i know telling all this makes them look like toxic but they love me

I mean, I was rasied by 2nd generation Asian parents - the comparisons and competitiveness within the family, especially by my grandparents was very prominent.

I believe its an issue like this - where your parents are burdening you with goals and expectations that you may not want to carry. I think its a cultural thing.

Assuming you are in the UK - I would go about seeking help from your school and/or child protective services. Abuse of any kind is not okay. Physical abuse especially so.