To cut a long story short I have had a very difficult time recently, Im trapped doing a degree I detest (but on a high 2:1/2:1 arm), hate my university town, amd have many aquaintences but not many close friends. I also have a very low self esteem which is stemming from a minor disfigurement (will be corrected soon). Anyway the reason why I am feeling very depressed is due to recently after having an op done, aside from my family being there 100% many of the people that I know, that I have spent time with, just don't care. I am finding that with a lot of my friendships I am having to make a lot of effort, and in turn I am finding it very difficult to develop solid relationships with people. This has been getting me down. Outside of term time I can deal with this a lot better because I have my family around me, but at university I am finding it really hard to cope as I dont have the same support base. This has made me feel lonely because outside of family despite knowing a lot of people, I feel lonely, and with girls all they ever do is string me along like if I am a nobody.
Anyway, I need to chill out, just dont know how too, been spending a lot of time around my family etc. But thinking about going back to university, my circle of friends, the fact that I just had an operation (when I should be out there living my life) and my final year is depressing me so much. How can I get over myself?
Thanks.