Anon/delete please
Hi TSR,
I'm 19 and about to go university this September. I have had Gynecomastia since I was about 13 and the problem got worst after I turned 15. Since 13, I haven't worn a t-shirt and haven't done ANYTHING that required me taking my shirt, and my vest and another shirt I wear underneath, off. I'm a good looking guy and have had a few girls asking me out but I've always had to say no because I know that I won't be able to be myself when I'm with them and will be too worried that they might notice my condition.
This isn't even about girls or relationships. I just want to go out in summer not having to wear a jacket. I don't want to wear 3 layers of clothing every time I go out. I want to be able to wear normal clothes without people looking at me.
I've looked up surgery as an option and have even gone to see a doctor and he told me my condition is the worst he's seen in more than 300 operations that he's done. NHS won't cover the cost of the operation and because of how much tissue I have in there the operation is complicated and it will cost me about £5000 to get my life back. Because of this condition I have been severely depressed and have put on 15 kg over the past few years and I can't do any sports to mantain my fitness and to burn that weight because I know people will laugh at me. I spoke to my gp and she said that there is no way NHS will pay for my operation.
I have honestly become tired of life. I know that unless I have this operation and then carry on to lose the excess 15 kg weight I will get depressed. I just don't know how to get the £5000 for this operation. The A levels I do are very hard and in my free time I have to keep up with the rest of my class because I'm not as intellegent as them. I just want a normal life so bad... I'm shaking while typing this.