I used to be a "glass half-empty" person; I always focused on the negatives and I isolated myself from everyone else. I focused on my schoolwork and I had no social life whatsoever. I was cynical and depressed and to be honest, I hated myself.
I thought love was for stupid people. Even if it wasn't, what chance did I have? I didn't even know my sexuality.
Then a year ago, I met someone and she changed my mind. She stuck out from the crowd like a rose in a field of daisies. I'll never forget her eyes; they were like cups of hot chocolate. She was the whole package; intelligent, kind, artistic, with a fantastic sense of humour, and there were so many similarities between us. We listened to the same music, watched the same shows, had the same hobbies...
She was the most beautiful creature I'd ever seen, inside and out.
I know I'll never meet her again but even now, 365 days later, I can still picture her in my mind's eye. I've spent hours trawling through Google Images; no matter how hard I search, I can never find anyone as pretty as she was.
She's inspired me to keep going, to keep living and to never give up. So much has changed since I've met her. I'm happier, more determined, more outgoing; I've improved myself in ways you can't imagine. My appearance, my personality, my health, my outlook; she changed them all with a click of her fingers.
My world has never been so bright.
I'm constantly hoping that I'll see her again, even for a moment, so I can hold her in my arms and thank her. My greatest wish is to repay her and support her and love her, even if she only sees me as a friend. I'd do anything for her and, if she's reading this, she'll never know who I'm talking about.
So, to those of you who are sad and lonely, to those of you who don't believe in love... Never give up because life will notice; it'll send you your guardian angel.
Just as it did for me.