ive lied about being sexually abused

"you're a good person for admitting it."

Do the right thing and turn yourself in.

??? Lying to people isn't necessarily a crime and op hasn't gone to the police or actually harmed anyone

Op It sounds as if you need to speak to counsellor or therapist to see why you are doing this and how you can get past it.

im not in a position where i can see a counsellor

Any reason why?

ive been in belgium for the pasy year and a half, i just about have a doctor here let alone a therapist

Lying about something as serious as that is one of the signs of a psycho/sociopath. Get help before it is too late

I think people here are being a bit harsh. Obviously what you did wasn't good but you've expressed remorse and nothing bad has come of it. We all do stupid, attention-seeking things when we're young. I'm assuming you're under the age of 25, in which case your brain is still developing and you're naturally more prone to impulsive, unexplainable behaviour than you will be when you're older.

Just make sure the people you've told aren't under any stress because of this. Perhaps you could muster the courage to come clean to them? I'll understand if you'd find that too uncomfortable.

Did you name a real, living person as the abuser?

noo i wouldnt want to get anyone involved, i said it was by someone i didnt know.

tbh the few people i told didnt urge me to go to the police or anything. it didnt stress them out

Lying about something as serious as that is one of the signs of a psycho/sociopath. Get help before it is too late

Maybe this behaviour stems from low self-esteem? Do you view yourself as uninteresting? If you think this might be true, do know that confidence usually grows with age. What are your hobbies? Perhaps join a relevant club? You'd meet like-minded people there and learn that you are an interesting person to people who share your personality traits.

Whats wrong with being a pshcho or sociopath?

im 18 years old. Things that could have triggered this behaviour; mum and dad split up, rejected shown no affection from mum after that, been bullied in primary school, in high school being given a reputation as a slag when i wasnt (i liked the attention at first but now i hate it), i used to self harm. Never been able to have a proper boyfriend due to my traditional Christian family values

I can't believe people are supporting the OP. People like you are the reason real victims don't report abuse. You deserve to be locked up as your actions can completely destroy someone's life.