Hello
I am looking for advice//reassurance
I am in year two of university and doing a very intense challenging course..
I have suffered with severe health problems for a while which are not under control and last year I missed the first two of university due to them.. this meant I missed the ice breaker period where everyone was making friends - I made one REAL friend from small tutorial session..
unfortunately they failed the year and so I am Actually on my OWN this year..
My health problems unexpectantly went SEVERE this summer and due to an emergency I missed the first week again of this year..
So basically I am pretty sure loners are loners for a reason - so my reason I am really not well and I struggle everyday and all I wish for is just to get my health back..
I still go to lectures everyday even though I am the only loner girl - I still do despite the horrible anxiety I get from thinking that everyone must be feeling sorry for me - because I have no one -
how can I better cope in lectures with this anxiety - I can't get friends now its too late - I just want to know how to improve my self esteem - self worth and not feel like a loser just cos I'm on my own
and yes - I know I shouldn't really be in uni this year due to my circumstances but I am not giving up till I have to.. - that's why I'm here even though my body language indicates that I'm sad everyday..
is it rare for a GIRl to be loner - FYI - I am cute looking and have nice figure - make reasonable efforts - don't think I'm ugly - just have no one..