I just want someone to understand what I'm going through and give me some advice.
I'm doing Biology, Chemistry, and English Lit for A-Level. I'm having nervous breakdowns every week because of biology and chemistry. I feel like I can't handle these science A-Levels any longer. I hate them. I know people would probably ask why I chose them. I was forced into doing them for A-Level by my parents. All my life my parents have been forcing me to do things that I don't want to do just t make them happy. They want me to be a pharmacist, but I don't want to be. Their stupid excuse for it is that girls do really well at biology. They have been manipulating me since year 7. My parents have been telling me that if I don't study a science related course at uni, I won't get a good job. I believed them because I was (and still am) young and I just thought that they wanted the best for me. That's when I realised that they don't care about my well being.
Just this morning I told my mum how unhappy I was. She didn't even care. She just told me that satan was making me say all these things and if I don't do well I will bring shame to my family. Right now I feel alone and I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no one to talk to.
My passion is English Literature. It is my favourite subject. I want to study it at university because I have always loved it from a young age.
How do I get through another year of Biology and Chemistry when I hate them with a passion. I feel like a failure. How can I cope?