Okay so this has been on my mind for a while now and i need to get it off my chest: i hate going on holiday with my family. Im 18, female and struggle with depression, my parents often get angry with me and tell me i’m ungrateful and a brat when i show signs of depression (sadness, irritability ect) so i have to act happy even though it’s exhausting.
My sister (20) is the main problem though; she ruins everything nice and has done since i can remember, i hate family meals because that means she can make snarky comments and make me feel awful (i feel that this comes partly from jealousy as i am going to university and have a nice social life while she is stuck at a minimum wage job she hates and only has her boyfriend). She makes me feel guilt for eating and is constantly saying that she won’t be eating today or saying she won’t be hungry for dinner even though she just woke up so it’s hard to make any plans where she won’t complain or just sit at a restaurant and talk about how she won’t be eating.
She’s not the smartest but she thinks she knows everything so she says dumb things and puts on a fake accent so she sounds local (we have a different accent to the area we live in) but she doesn’t realise how annoying it is. She gets overly angry at nothing but my parents never do anything about it. she’s entitled, even deciding that she needs two bedrooms and started redecorating the spare bedroom for herself while nobody batted an eye at her spending my parents money on a room she doesn’t need while i’ve been asking for new wallpaper or even just paint for months.
Holidays are stressful and i can get overwhelmed after being with my family for any period of time. This leads to me being the child who ruins the family holiday though the problem of my sister is never addressed.
She’s angry and swearing over biscuits as i write this. My mums coddling her.
I hate to sound ungrateful but i can’t do another two weeks of this, i’ve been dreading it more than i have my Alevel exams.
Any advise would be appreciated and if anyone has had a similar issue; how did you deal with it?