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Original post by mez_merising
good luck meg!


Thank you lovely
Original post by RazzzBerries
Gimme em tags gurl. Your life story is interesting ngl.


Sure! Although I think the last sentence might be up for debate:redface:
Original post by troubletracking
Sure! Although I think the last sentence might be up for debate:redface:

Well I’d win that debate :wink:
Original post by RazzzBerries
Well I’d win that debate :wink:


Ahahah, fair enough, not gonna argue with that:biggrin:
Tuesday, 4th September 2018
Currently reading: freaking Frankenstein *groan Frankenstein's monster would be jealous of*
Today's timetable: English (P1), Tutorial (P2), History (P3) and French (P5)

The long posts are back, my friend, just like Britney's 2008 album after her 2007 breakdown:wink:

Today the A2s came back, so it was literally so busy omg. There's about 2500 students, and apparently 1800 of those are A1s (year 12s), so I don't know why there's only 700 (lmao "OnLy 700") A2s, but that's that, I guess:redface:
Tuesday's are my busiest day, which is great for me because that means less time awkwardly bumbling around the corridors in my frees looking for something to do. The downside to that, however, is that I had to get up at 6am, which didn't go particularly well because it was DARK outside and I do this thing where I'll wake up, turn off my alarm and I'll think, "Oh my god, I'm SO tired, let me just lay back down and close my eyes just for five minutes and I definitely won't fall asleep because I need to get the bus-"
19 minutes later, my mum's knocking on my door and I'm like "uh oh" so today was the first rushed mornings of what I suspect to be many more. Love it.

Anyway, first period was English, and this is my only lesson with someone in it I actually know, and everyone in my class seems really nice (if a little intimidating but I guess that's because I don't know anyone lol). Our teacher was nice (avoided having to say her name, which is how I'm planning to spend the whole year), and we got given the books we're doing this year. I was expecting like, idk, four? A bit of a step up from GCSE but nothing too intense, but nope, we're studying 6 books this year, and I've only heard of half of them. One of which is Twelfth Night, and honestly I do lowkey wish I was doing the Tempest, because we did Twelfth Night in year 8 and again in year 9 (obviously not in as much detail tho) and I don't know if I can take two more years of Malvolio's freaking yellow stockings. I'm kinda looking forward to it a little, though as I do like English (if you couldn't tell lmao), although I'm a little intimidated by how many times I've heard the phrase 'wider reading'. In lesson, we did a few icebreakers and went over the course, and I've found out I'm doing gothic instead of dystopian, so Frankenstein wasn't in vain (although I wish it was because it's as dry as Victor's social life while he was running up and down the country digging up legs to make a monster).

Then I had my tutorial, which I have every week, and it's basically like form, except well, it's not. Today we had an IT 101 type lesson where we logged in to the system and were taught how to use all the complicated the programmes they use. We were also told to check out school email every day, and idk why but that made me feel like right business lady:biggrin: Look at me, checking all my emails daily like the profesh, independent woman I am. There was also this surprise assessment thingy, which had basic literacy and maths problems and I was lowkey triggered by the whole 'Jamie has 34 eggs, but then breaks two and gives half away, so how many does he have for his breakfast?' shenanigans, because here I was thinking I'd never have to count on my fingers again. Thrown in there was a 'what type of learner are you?' assessment and a cheeky typing test, and I can now inform y'all that I'm a multi-sensory learner and I have a typing speed of 37.5 wpm, which apparently is high but it doesn't sound that impressive tbh:redface:

After break was history, in which we haven't actually started the course, but we're doing background infomation before the course actually starts, and there's all sorts of political words in there I'd never heard of before. We haven't actually started the actual required content yet, and it feels like there's already so much to know so I know I'm in for a hell of a journey with Lord Salisbury and his conservative pals. There's also required wider reading for history, which intimidates me a but tbh. With English it's quite self-explanatory: go away and read a book with similar themes. But with history, am I fully meant to go read Churchill's biography, or is it more a 'read BBC history magazine' or 'read a different textbook kinda thing' or am I meant to read actual novels set in the 1900s?? (Inspector Calls coming thru amirite:wink:)

I had lunch with my friend, then we both had a free period together, and this, ladies and gentlemen, is the point in my day where it all went downhill, not that it was going all that spectacular to begin with. Atm, I'm having a Duke of Edinburgh crisis, cos I'm not a very outdoorsy person (and I've heard quite a few negative reviews to say the least lmao), but I'm also not a very adventurous person and I'm trying to push myself out of my comfort zone more, so I thought this might've been a great way to become more outgoing while also ticking that mandatory enrichment box, and I could throw it on my personal statement to show that I don't spend all my time at my desk n stuff. So I went to the DofE office like it said on the letter thing, hoping to talk to someone who would give me the exact rundown of what to expect and maybe give me a letter saying all the stuff you have to do on it, but when I rocked up they were mid-meeting. So the woman ushered me to come in and I was like "um, I dunno if I should do DofE cos I don't like camping but I'm tryna be adventurous," and she looked at me as if to say 'well what are you doing here love' before being like "Well are you doing it or not?". I was like "well, do you recommend it?" and she went "Well I wouldn't be here if I didn't recommend it, do you want to do it or not?". So I went "uh, okay", she wrote my name down and gave me a form and it was at that moment that I knew... I had ****ed up.
Several hours later I 110% don't wanna do it, so I'm not going to have to go and say to her that I don't wanna do it and I don't really have a reason why except that I'm a total wet blanket, and she's quite scary so I'm lowkey scared she's gonna go off on me. And that was the time I signed up for DofE and realised it really wasn't for me. At all.

After that traumatic experience, I had French, and already I can tell this is the one I'm gonna struggle with most. The actual work I can do fine (for now)- we were finishing off present tense today and I was pretty happy, but I've noticed that everyone speaks French from the back of their throat so it actually sounds French, and I kinda... don't. If you take le, the French pronunciation is more like luh, while I'll say it with English phonics, kinda like leh, and idk, I guess I'm scared I'll sound stupid or offensive, but we're supposed to have like a native person come in for speaking practice, so I suppose I'll just vent all my french troubles to them:redface:

I only had one piece homework today (joy of joys), and it's due Thursday, but I did it this evening anyway, because apparently I'm now the epitome of a model student:wink:

French:
Cheeky sheet on the present tense, which didn't take long. I'm actually surprised how much I retained since, like, May, seeing as I did literally nothign in the summer. I really should get back on the Duolingo bandwagon soon ughhh I always say this and it never happens.

Didn't do much apart from that this evening apart from mooch around on my laptop and talk to my sister, who started high school today and has both my old Maths teacher and my year 9 history teacher, as well as my French teacher- though she's been put on Spanish (boooo) and isn't happy because "you can't do my homework for me now".
Hope everyone had a nice day today! I think a lot seem to be going back tomorrow, so I hope y'all have a lovely first day back at the local hellhole:smile:


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ooh you sound like you've got yourself into a bit of a pickle with d of e!
you're gonna do great at french:thumbsup:
Original post by entertainmyfaith
ooh you sound like you've got yourself into a bit of a pickle with d of e!
you're gonna do great at french:thumbsup:


Ah I'll get out of it somehow:wink: If not I might be typing some of my posts from a soggy tent in the Yorkshire dales:redface:
Gonna have to whip the memrise out again, but thank you for entertaining my faith in my dodgy French
Original post by troubletracking
Ah I'll get out of it somehow:wink: If not I might be typing some of my posts from a soggy tent in the Yorkshire dales:redface:
Gonna have to whip the memrise out again, but thank you for entertaining my faith in my dodgy French


always here to motivate people:biggrin::wink:
looks like you're in a bit of a pickle with DofE. go up to her and say you don't want to do it, or don't fill out the form :tongue:
best of luck with french! :rave: (always hated the way you had to pronounce everything from the back of your throat)
(tag me!!)
most entertaining post going thanks for that :smile:
Original post by clouddbubbles
most entertaining post going thanks for that :smile:


Well I'm glad that my mild emotional trauma has been at least somewhat entertaining for the masses
Original post by nyxnko_
looks like you're in a bit of a pickle with DofE. go up to her and say you don't want to do it, or don't fill out the form :tongue:
best of luck with french! :rave: (always hated the way you had to pronounce everything from the back of your throat)
(tag me!!)


I know argh why am I such a numpty?? I'm gonna approach her tomorrow and I get myself out of this mess unlike the time in year 8 where I lowkey accidentally went to Germany for five days:redface:
Ah thank you! Gonna need it I'm going to have to get the *phlegm sound* down:france:
Of course
Wednesday, 5th September 2018
Today's timetable: English (P3)yep, that's it. that's the timetable.
Current choon: Broke by Modest Mouse (really faffing around with this n nothing's sticking atm)

I'm just really not feeling it today, to be honest. Feeling pretty demotivated and a little miserable, but we can't be digging french verbs all the time, and I'm okay. Could be worse, huh? I could be in a soggy tent on the yorkshire dales *shudders*
I started at 11:25 today so I had a great lie in until 8am, and then I had English Literature, which was my only lesson today. What is the actual point of that? Anyway, my friend was ill today so I was on my own, but it didn't make me anxious because I didn't have to suffer break or lunch on my own, and I really like my English class so far. I talked to some more new people who were also very nice, and we got given a Christina Rossetti anthology thingy, which is what we're going to be looking at first. My major concern this year is that as my courses get more specialised, my annual unfunny educational jokes become a lot more niche. We can all relate to a classic wave cut platform pun, but the ins and outs of Christina Rossetti? Uh, who? So here’s to another year of me talking to myself and laughing at my own jokes that about three people will understand. It’s not much of a difference from real life, really.

So, yeah, that was today really. I didn't do anything when I got home, and I'm really just not liking my timetable at all (which seems to be a bit of a consensus this year, according to some other tsrians who have some pretty scary timetables- rip @Toastiekid). I have thirteen frees right now, which may or may not become eleven by the 17th, but it just feels a little bit ridiculous. I'm sure I'll be thanking the gods by May, but what am I supposed to do with that much time? It sounds a little dramatic, but I'd rather have a full timetable just so I've got something to do, and i find it's a lot harder to really make friends when I'm only seeing people for a couple of hours a day, instead of constantly being in class where I'm meeting new people all the time. I don't know, I guess I'm just not reacting very well to such a big change (how will I cope at uni lmao), and I'll be fine by October or something.

Because I was only required to be on the premises for 70 minutes, I didn't have any free periods that I could go and see the scary DofE lady in, so I guess I'll do it tomorrow. Enrichment is compulsory, so I'll need to think of something else, and preferably pretty quickly because they're apparently nearly all full. I was originally thinking about conversational Russian/Italian/Spanish, but now I'm leaning more towards volunteering somewhere. I never knew you needed voluntary work to be a teacher, but apparently you do (sounds pretty obvious now tho duhh), so I should probably look into it more, but idk if I even want to be a teacher. But, I mean, volunteering's always useful, not just for myself, so I guess I'll pop into the enrichment office after breaking up with Barbara (dofe lady) and vent all my life troubles.

Bit of a crap update, but it is what it is. Hopefully, tomorrow might be a little more exciting:redface:

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Original post by troubletracking
I know argh why am I such a numpty?? I'm gonna approach her tomorrow and I get myself out of this mess unlike the time in year 8 where I lowkey accidentally went to Germany for five days:redface:
Ah thank you! Gonna need it I'm going to have to get the *phlegm sound* down:france:
Of course


numpty :rofl: where do u think of these words?! :tongue:
please do get yourself out of it (and although i'm sure Germany wasn't too bad, i assure you DofE is going to be much worse)
welp, good luck with that :rave:
:hugs:

you really want those frees :laugh: I've got 3 frees timetabled and it's really hard work working outside of class. i relate with the bit where you can't find something to do though..
it's not really a rubbish update :hugs: we can't really expect you to type up 1000-word essays with really sarcastic, witty puns all the time. sometimes, it's nice just to hear about your day :yes:
Original post by nyxnko_
numpty :rofl: where do u think of these words?! :tongue:
please do get yourself out of it (and although i'm sure Germany wasn't too bad, i assure you DofE is going to be much worse)
welp, good luck with that :rave:
:hugs:

you really want those frees :laugh: I've got 3 frees timetabled and it's really hard work working outside of class. i relate with the bit where you can't find something to do though..
it's not really a rubbish update :hugs: we can't really expect you to type up 1000-word essays with really sarcastic, witty puns all the time. sometimes, it's nice just to hear about your day :yes:


Is numpty not a commonly used word in your region? What about plonker?:biggrin:
I deffo will, didn't have any frees in the middle of the day today, either, so I'm definitely off to see her tomorrow:redface: (And yeah, Germany turned out to be pretty fun, but I doubt we'll be off to a chocolate factory or the Cologne Christmas markets as part ofDofE)
Oof thank you, I'm gonna need it
Ah I guess they'll come in pretty useful during exam season, idk why I seem to have so many more than everyone else tho!
Feels like I'm just boring y'all with random facts about my day, but thank you Don't worry tho, I'm sure they'll be a ranty sarcastic dissertation coming soon, can't have you missing my puns for too long:wink:
(you've literally converted me to the hug lifestyle I hope you're happy)
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Thursday, 6th September 2018
Today's timetable: French (P3), History (P4), English (P5)

Don't want to blow my own trumpet or anything, but I'm really killing it with these posts lately. What is this, the fourth one in a row? Wow, I'm proud of you, Meghan, you're not such a numpty (just for you, Kei) after all.
I actually had a pretty good day today. Once again, I was only in for third period, so I arrived at around 11ish to meet my friend for break, before we skiddadled off to lesson at 11:25, which happened to be French. I'm literally going to have abs by time this year's up after how much walking I do, and the MFL rooms are right at one end of the building with like three flights of stairs, so it's always nice to stagger into the classroom slightly sweaty and trying not to look like I'm panting. We're going through French right from the beginning at the moment so we're on the same page as we've done different things for GCSE, and we're still on present tense regulars. Went through some sheets, handed in the homework, and then whipped out the textbooks. My teacher asked me to read a paragraph which was slightly traumatic, but I made it through, albeit like a bumbling idiot. We then got our speaking sesh timetabled in, and mine starts next Friday period three (guess who's got 12 and a half free periods now:wink:). It's a weekly 20 minute speaking session with an actual native speaker, and while I know it's going to be so useful and beneficial, I'm lowkey really nervous:s-smilie:

Then I had history. I find it quite interesting how in GCSE, the lessons were pretty much all taught the same, but now, there's a big difference in how all my subjects are taught. HIstory is kinda more lecture-style, in the way my teacher just stands at the front and reels off the information, which I'm fine with. I like that it's no fuss and there's none of that 'go around the room and find the different facts' kinda stuff, but my notes are literally indecipherable (even for me), so I'm going to have to rewrite them 'neatly', which would probably help me remember it better anyway. So yeah, we're still doing background information for the course, although we've just got up to 1906, where the course actually starts. It's crazy to think that I've literally got four full pages of A4 for just context and none of it's actually on the spec yet.

Went to Gregg's for lunch again (there seems to be a bit of a pattern so maybe it's a good thing that I'm doing like 8000 steps per day:redface:), and then I had English, which is by far my favourite lesson thus far. We've just started Rossetti's poetry, and we got put into groups of five to start analysing three of her poems. There was me, the good friend I actually knew from high school, a girl I know somewhat well as she's also in my French and tutor group, and another girl who we all got on so well with, and it was so hilarious. There was this guy in a group who kept rolling his eyes when we were on about pregnant women eating charcoal (literally don't know how the conversation to turned to that but one minute we were one about cravings and the next it was charcoal), and I actually had so much fun in that lesson, even though we perhaps didn't get as much done as we should've done. I had to give out my snapchat with a straight face (it's so bad it makes me want to cry 12-year-old Meghan did not make good life decisions), and then we got the bus back with the girl we met from that group, so yeah, pretty fun times.

Had no mid-day free periods today either, so I'm deffo off to see my gal Barbara tomorrow, as I've got two whole hours to kill. Maybe she'll invite me for afternoon tea. Maybe she'll zip me up in a tent and drag me kicking and screaming to the moors (no joke I once got zipped up in a tent in playgroup for like three hours #traumatic amiirite?)

I literally got home at 6 because the traffic was so bad and we didn't finish until 4. I didn't do anything again after tea (or dinner, to cater to all my southern readers), as I had no homework, and I honestly feel so guilty. I don't know if it's because I'm still almost used to it being June or May and having a million and one things to do when I got home, but I hate the feeling of not doing anything, even when there's not a whole lot I could be doing. I 110% NEED to start both Duolingo and Memrise again, but it's one of those situations where the actual act is as easy as opening up the app again and it takes about 0.7 seconds, but it's so unnecessarily hard to do and I keep putting it off, but I now that once I start, I'll be good, you know? I also need to pick up Frankenstein again. Please scream at me tomorrow to read that goddamn book.

So yeah, hope you're having a great week, hope your mum's doing well, hope your dog enjoyed their breakfast his morning:smile:

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Original post by troubletracking
Is numpty not a commonly used word in your region? What about plonker?:biggrin:
I deffo will, didn't have any frees in the middle of the day today, either, so I'm definitely off to see her tomorrow:redface: (And yeah, Germany turned out to be pretty fun, but I doubt we'll be off to a chocolate factory or the Cologne Christmas markets as part ofDofE)
Oof thank you, I'm gonna need it
Ah I guess they'll come in pretty useful during exam season, idk why I seem to have so many more than everyone else tho!
Feels like I'm just boring y'all with random facts about my day, but thank you Don't worry tho, I'm sure they'll be a ranty sarcastic dissertation coming soon, can't have you missing my puns for too long:wink:
(you've literally converted me to the hug lifestyle I hope you're happy)


honestly, no. some of my very British friends use them (both numpty and plonker) but generally, most people don't use them.
oh good :yes: (heck, if you did go to a chocolate factory/Cologne Christmas markets as part of your DofE, I would expel myself from my current school and join yours :tongue:)
hmm.. maybe you might want to check that with your head of year/subject teachers to make sure you're going to all your classes. it might be that they forgot to schedule some of the classes in yours, resulting in too many frees? i know mine was like that due to options in physics/FM so maybe you've got something similar?
um.. the whole point of a GYG is to update about the random facts of your day :giggle:
:lovehug: (yep, definitely happy. besides, we're both so tiny that we're awkward to hug irl so virtual hugs are the way to go :laugh:)

super proud that you're killing it with these posts! :woo:
maybe not abs but you'll have gorgeous legs from all the walking/stair-climbing :run:
why on earth would you decide to go on DofE when you've been traumatised in a tent as a child?! :eek: Meghan, I worry for you.
I'm having an okay week (not a great one), my mum's well and I don't have a dog :tongue:
Original post by nyxnko_
honestly, no. some of my very British friends use them (both numpty and plonker) but generally, most people don't use them.
oh good :yes: (heck, if you did go to a chocolate factory/Cologne Christmas markets as part of your DofE, I would expel myself from my current school and join yours :tongue:)
hmm.. maybe you might want to check that with your head of year/subject teachers to make sure you're going to all your classes. it might be that they forgot to schedule some of the classes in yours, resulting in too many frees? i know mine was like that due to options in physics/FM so maybe you've got something similar?
um.. the whole point of a GYG is to update about the random facts of your day :giggle:
:lovehug: (yep, definitely happy. besides, we're both so tiny that we're awkward to hug irl so virtual hugs are the way to go :laugh:)

super proud that you're killing it with these posts! :woo:
maybe not abs but you'll have gorgeous legs from all the walking/stair-climbing :run:
why on earth would you decide to go on DofE when you've been traumatised in a tent as a child?! :eek: Meghan, I worry for you.
I'm having an okay week (not a great one), my mum's well and I don't have a dog :tongue:


Maybe 2018'll be the year I bring 'numpty' back
DofE confession: Barbara only comes in on Mondays and Tuesdays so I'll have to see her then What a palaver oml
Yeah, turns out I'd been comparing my timetable to people who take four, so looks like everything's good. I have the same number of frees as people from my college who take three, whereas my friends who go to my school's sixth form have fewer frees because they have 5 blocks of each subject and I have 4. So yeah, panic over
Once again, you're right Whatever would I do without you? Still feel weird not talking about revision all the time tho
I'm awkward enough at hugs irl anyway without another small person involved, so I guess we'll stick with
Ahh thank you!! Wonder how long it'll last lmao
Did another 8000 steps today. I'm gonna be like hulk by the time I go to uni
Idk!!Spontaneous Meghan is never a good one to make long-term decisions. And so do I kei, so do I. I'm like a four year old at Disneyland, somebody get me some reins
Well, that's one out of three, right? I reckon next week you'll have a great week, which is progress:biggrin: (we'll figure out the dog part another time)
Friday, 7th September 2018
Today's timetable: French (P1), English (P2),History (P6)
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I'm not gonna lie, I really wasn't feeling this whole college lark for the first few days, but today and yesterday have honestly been great and I feel myself kinda settling in, which is nice.
Friday's are weird at my school, because instead of having 5 70 minute periods, we have 6 60 minute periods, which sounds a little daft, but it's to accommodate everyone so that we all have all of our subjects on a Friday. Unfortunately though, that means I had three free periods in a row. This week really has been Meghan vs the Free Periods.
Anyway, I was supposed to get up at 6am for the dreaded first period *shudders* but I did that thing AGAIN where I woke up and thought 'hmm, let me just rest my eyes for a sec', and then suddenly half an hour had passed and my mum was like "MEgHaN iT'S hALf SiX gEt Up!!1!1" so I somehow managed to get ready, slap on a bit of makeup haphazardly, brush my teeth and shove a brioche roll in my pocket in fifteen minutes, so I had plenty of time to throw my hair up in a ponytail and rummage around in my bag trying to sort out my papers to get the 07:10 bus. Nailed it.

Once again, French was first, and today was a listening kinda day. We have a listening day every week (something I'm in desperate need of, let me tell you), so we sat and did some listening practices on the computers (which have windows 10 dunno if I've ever seen school software that modern before wow), in which I performed somewhat admirably. They were on family, and if that's not MFL 101 then I don't what is, so it wasn't anything I'd ever done before, but they also seemed a lot quicker as if they were talking normally, which threw me a little. I've realised the worst thing I do in listenings is that if I don't know the word, I'll write what I hear phonetically, instead of trying to suss it out. For example, one of the speakers said 'ambiance', and because I didn't immediately know what word that was, I straight up wrote 'embyance', despite knowing that wasn't actually a legit word (who knows, maybe it is), and I probably could've got to the right answer if I'd actually used my brain.

Ensuite, I had English, where we were back in the groups we were yesterday and back to analysing our pal Rossetti, whose poems do seem a lot more complex than the stuff in our AQA anthology. That does seem to be another thing I've noticed with a-levels: there's a lot less external help. A lot of my poetry revision revolved around our Lord and saviour Mr Bruff, but obviously, I won't be able to use him this year. There's fewer resources, revision guides aren't recommended, and in general, you just seem to be left on your own a lot more to figure it out for yourself. Which I guess is understandable, really. Anyway, we made a pact at the beginning of the lesson to "actually do some work today," which worked great for the first hour, but then a friendly political debate arose, and a girl told us she was a Mormon, and then the only boy in our group (poor soul) said he has two mums, and the rest of the lesson was spent discussing those and half-heartedly underlining caesuras. The best difference between my high school and college atm is how diverse it is. In high school, literally most of the people in my year were white, but in this week alone, I've talked to so many different people from different backgrounds. There's so many people who are of colour and who aren't straight and who don't have the same opinions as I do, and it's just really nice to discuss them, like it's just such a better representation of the world than high school ever was.

After that, I had roughly, hmm... four hours to kill? I was lowkey dreading it, but I spent break and period three in the main hall chatting with my high school friend and another friend from our group in English, which was really nice and chill, and it was the first time I felt I belonged there..? That acc sounds so stupid, but for the first time this week I wasn't awkwardly wandering around trying to pass time, and it was just nice to sit there and be around other people, and idk that was just so nice.

Then my friend from high school went off for period four, which was her last lesson of the day so I said goodbye to her, and it was just me and the new friend I'd made from our English group, who I got on so well with. First off, we decided to tackle the Barbara situation, once I'd given her the rundown on the current situation to which she rolled her eyes, and I prepped how I was going to be all "I'm sorry for wasting your time" and "I discussed it with my parents and decided it really wasn't for me" and more importantly, "Please could you take me off the list for DofE?" and I was bricking it. To set the scene, Barbara's office is at the very top of the main bit of the school. You go up a big ass staircase, and then you go round the corner of loads of classrooms to find a second set of stairs, but these are wooden and creaky and have strong 'you shouldn't be here' vibes, which really threw me back to the dreaded stairway climb to do my French speaking exam. We go to the top and there are just two doors, and my palms are sweating and she looks at me and I look at her she nods and I knock on the door before entering and... she's not bloody there. We ask the guy in the room across from it, and he's like "Oh, she only comes in on Mondays and Tuesdays" so that's smashing. Anticlimactic much.

The next call of action was to go to the enrichment office, because I'm still trying to push myself out of my comfort zone more, DofE regrets aside, and I thought volunteering might be the perfect level of scary for me to handle. I rocked up like "hey, can I talk to you about volunteering?" and I asked her that if volunteering that wasn't actually related to being in a school still counts, and then another woman ruffled around in some folder in the background, and handed me a letter requesting volunteers to help with reading in a primary school. I was like "Oh, this is perfect, thank you" and she gave me the number to ring. I'm guessing I can only ring during school hours, so I'm probably going to have to call them during a free period sometime next week, and then she started rattling off directions to where the school was and I was doing what I do best: pretending I know exactly what's going on. I don't live in the town where I go to school, so I ain't got a clue in hell where the flipping leisure centre is, but Google Maps has never let me down, so I'll be fine, and I might not even get the position anyway. It's a primary school though, and I don't think I'm the best with children, and young kids especially are known to be pretty, uh, germ-y. Don't wanna go on about this too much, but I kinda have this big phobia of sick that's the worst it's ever been since I developed it 9 years ago, and I'm really afraid of catching something. I'm very aware that's a really irrational way of thinking and is partly why I say no to things, and I also know that's very unlikely to happen, so I'm trying to not let it stop me.

After faffing around a bit more, it was lunch time, so just the two of us headed out for lunch. She fancied KFC, but I vowed to never eat KFC after I heard about a school trip last year in which half ate KFC for lunch and the other had McDonalds's and everyone that had KFC got food poisoning (see what I mean?), so I went to get a meal deal in Sainsbury's before smuggling it into KFC. She was all 'calm down Meghan, it's BLT, not LSD, they're not gonna arrest you for eating a sandwich in KFC' and we just had a really nice lunch. It wasn't awkward at all which surprised me because usually, I hate prolonged one-on-one conversations because I always run out of things to say, but we talked constantly from second period to the beginning of fifth period, when she went to her law lesson and I headed into the library. I found a girl in there who I'm friends with in French, and I got a lot of my history notes rewritten, and she did some worksheets from one of the four thousand languages she studies.

At around three, she went off to English and I headed to history, and boy was I absolutely knackered. I think Friday is the only day I'm in first all the way to last period, and I was dead by the time I'd climbed up even more stairs to get to my classroom. It honestly feels like I'm sat in a politics lesson at the moment and i just kinda want to get into the actual course instead of faffing around with Arthur Balfour, but I think we're almost done with context now. I'm glad i need to write up my history notes again after each lesson because the lessons go by so fast I'm a little overwhelmed. The teacher talks a hell of a lot faster than i can write, and his handwriting's even worse than mine to the point it's borderline illegible cos it's a strange mix of lowercase and uppercase, and in general I just feel a lot of the politics-talk goes over my head. I find that's always the case with history though, and i never really get it until i've gone back and gone over it again, so hoepully by the end of this weekend I'll be a bit more confident on the Boer War, even if it's freaking Boer-ing (sorry, I couldn't resist:tongue:).

I got home at around 6pm again, so after eating, I really wasn't in the mood to do anything. This weekend, I've got quite a bit of homeowrk from each subject to do, but not all that much. Hopefully I'll also finally pick up Duolingo and Memrise again.

First week over kiddos!! Only, what, forty-odd more to go??:redface:

Pour souls who have committed to being tagged:
(if you're also slightly masochistic, lemme know if you wanna be tagged- or removed, for that matter)

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Original post by troubletracking
Maybe 2018'll be the year I bring 'numpty' back
DofE confession: Barbara only comes in on Mondays and Tuesdays so I'll have to see her then What a palaver oml
Yeah, turns out I'd been comparing my timetable to people who take four, so looks like everything's good. I have the same number of frees as people from my college who take three, whereas my friends who go to my school's sixth form have fewer frees because they have 5 blocks of each subject and I have 4. So yeah, panic over
Once again, you're right Whatever would I do without you? Still feel weird not talking about revision all the time tho
I'm awkward enough at hugs irl anyway without another small person involved, so I guess we'll stick with
Ahh thank you!! Wonder how long it'll last lmao
Did another 8000 steps today. I'm gonna be like hulk by the time I go to uni
Idk!!Spontaneous Meghan is never a good one to make long-term decisions. And so do I kei, so do I. I'm like a four year old at Disneyland, somebody get me some reins
Well, that's one out of three, right? I reckon next week you'll have a great week, which is progress:biggrin: (we'll figure out the dog part another time)


:rofl: maybe
What even?! Is she even working?
oh okay. that's good then, if you've got the frees.
:cube: welp, we can't always be revising :laugh: (it looks like you miss it :tongue:)
:lovehug:
I don't know. Maybe once school really starts up again, we'll all stop posting :rofl:
Meghan Hulk!! :woo: (You'll have to show us a full body pic then :yes:)
:rofl: Hey, that's not really comparable. 4-year-olds at Disneyland don't decide to go on the scariest ride, queue for over an hour and then decide at the front to not go on the scariest ride :laugh: (that's me, by the way)
(but I'll see if I can find some reins for Meghan)
1/3 isn't good enough :sadnod:

(Friday wasn't the 4th..................... :confused:)
Mr Bruff!! :gah: Is he still good for A-levels?
If you think college is diverse, wait until you get to uni. I bet it's going to be even more diverse!! :woo:
Well done for not being awkward during 1-to-1 conversations!! :yay: (Improvement from anti-social Meghan who didn't want to leave the house over summer)
Get onto Duolingo and Memrise again!
40-odd :bricks:
My replies are getting onto your scale. They're getting longer and longer...

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