So yeah I’m on a gap year atm and I’m planning on travelling for maybe 4-6 months, something I’ve dreamed of doing my entire life, and I had a convo with my bf of 2 years about how he feels about it.. he just bluntly says he has a choice to not stay in the relationship and it’ll be hard because he’s a needy guy.. this is understandable and I have embraced the concept of this happening, but it kind of hurt bc it seems that rather living the essence of who I am I feel as though he really just loves company and just someone to fulfill his needs basically... he’s generally been an extremely loving and very compassionate person so hearing him just come out with this. Tbf it’s not the point of him leaving which bothers me.. it’s bc I feel like I’ve had the wrong concept of how strong our love is.. He told me I’ve been the best he’s had and the longest relationship, but then he just says he wouldn’t be able to endure 4 months apart and throw away 2 years of our relationship... it doesn’t seem as set in stone as I thought. See it’s not the point of him leaving that hurts, it’s my misconception of what love really is as I’ve struggled to have it in my life.. not just from a relationship but from friends/family.. I have depression and social anxiety and generally can’t get close to any other person, so the only person I genuinely love the most and is close with and is basically the only person I have other than my parents says something like that to me... it kind of scolds me... I’ve obviously mistaken it for unconditional love... after he said this he apologised briefly and I understand he will feel lonely but I can’t let go of it... if I was The one being left behind I’d instead say I’ll miss you a lot and it’ll be difficult for me but we will see how it goes and I’ll try my best to stay