20, M, and i'm such a **** driver. I keep making the same mistakes in my lessons that should be second nature by now.
I've had 35 or so 1 hour lessons which is moving up to 2 hour lessons so far. My test is in the 31st of January and I feel like I am not ready even though my instructor says I am.
But today's lesson really got me, I ****ed up at roundabouts, signaling on wrong exits, almost hit a green bin and I failed to stop at a pedestrian crossing to let a woman on a bike across.. I've already done this once before on another pedestrian crossing in a different lesson.
What annoyed me about this is, I never looked on both sides of the crossing. My eyes were focused on the car opposite me slowing right down and next thing I knew my instructor slammed the breaks and pointed to my right. I saw the woman wave and cycled across.
Unbelievable. i thought to myself. instead of looking at the pedestrian crossing I was looking at the ****ing car in front of me and wondering why he's ****ing stopping.
My instructor did say it was dark and vision is limited, true, it was dark hence why I made many mistakes. It was my first time driving at night.
I told myself that's no excuse, its me who's driving and the one responsible for it.
I still beat myself up about this. After every lesson I write down what I did wrong and what to improve on. Some lessons I improve on some things, some lessons I make the same mistakes 2 lessons before.
I feel like im not improving, something always goes wrong in my lessons and my instructor always has to intervene.
Confidence is dropping fast and im getting more anxious because my test is coming up.
Any advice?