Hi Lucas,
I understand where you are coming from. I myself have felt this way for a long time. I never EVER thought id even be in uni, and though I just finished my second year, my mind seems to tell me you'll never graduate. I lack in everything that my friends and family have.
But one thing I can tell you Lucas is that I never give up. IT has taken me so many years of redoing college (6-7 years) to finaly get the right qualification to come to uni. It has been hard because I moved to an Arabic speaking language, learnt the language, then 5 years later I moved to England, with 0 spoken of English, and had to learn it from ABC. on top of that, I had undiagnosed Dyslexia which only college I got diagnosed, and I think I had and still have ADHD that is un diagnosed. I hade multiple people telling only recently (all from medical background). And I feel like it explains soo much about myselfe and why I had so much energy and always getting in trouble in school.
One day, I made a list of everything I needed to achieve.
Driving
Uni
Money, ect...
BUT.. when making a list of what you want to achieve, make sure you break it down. because its easy to achieve something small, and you can feel like your moving forward in your life rather than one big goa that seems impossible.
FOR EXAMPLE; I did not just write down Driving. I broke it down like so..
1 - Download theory test app
2 - Look through the Questions
3 - PRATICE FOR 20 mints before bed (on my bed)
4 - Get a all answers right on my theory mock test (on the app)
5 - Once you get all answers on mock test, BOOK THEORY TEST.
6 - look for a driving instructor
7 - call the driving instructors number
8 - Book a day for a lesson
9 - pass your mock Driving test with your instructor
10 - book DRIVING TEST for same area where you been practising.
Plan your goals like this lucas. EVERYTHING. Youll be abale to acheive smaller goals. I never thought id drive either.