Everyone likes to say I dont care what people think. But the reality is it can affect us all if we're honest to some degree. I hate that my getting a girlfriend now seems to be(and with other people) some sort of marketplace where you are deemed valuable goods if more people are into you. Like, I hate being judged as something wrong with me for not having a GF but I know thats how many women think. It means that my getting a girlfriend now becomes about proving I'm not abnormal to women in general, in the future etc. I hate verything being cheap vulgar and public, I feel like I have less and less locus of control in my life it does..otherwise I'd just end up with resentful, cheap, and sentimental relationships. I know I'd go back to misanthropy and rage with people If I cant feel in control. So is it my problem? Am I rigt about people beig judgemental, and how I do attain the sense I'm doing it for myself and not just being a little approval tart(dont want to be seen as that) but dont want to be judged as weirdo who cant get girlfriend etc...I obviously dont want this percpetion/image thing to matter when having kids also, like i say, i dont want to need a boost to myself by doig what makes me good in others eyes, especially when it comes to a serious responsiility like kids...
How do I attain ethical selfishness, to fulfil my own truest reasons for doing things, so I can act in best accordance with my own true feelings , maintain a strong locus of my own control, and not in a reluctant, hateful, machiavellian way of trying to manipulate, stay on side etc in others views.
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Lifelong struggle..want to do things of my own desires not other peoples watch
- 16-01-2010 20:46
- 16-01-2010 20:57
Hope I can articulate it but it torments me
- 16-01-2010 21:19
thought it might be a regular thing
- 16-01-2010 21:26
If you don't like living for other people, it's very simple - don't do it.
You've really no need to worry or care what other people think.
- 16-01-2010 21:27
I like you.