Am I scum?

Scum...Sub human scum

It all started few nights ago when my mate and I stupidly decided to have a drunken bet on the Japan / England game. We were in no fit state to gamble and my mate ended up accidentally putting the money on Japan to win. To make matters worse, the idiot did it with his mum's credit card.

Now I managed to get out of it by leaving my mate in the lurch. He had a big bust up with his dad recently as well which ended up with my mate lamping his dad one and getting chucked out house. I know I should feel bad about it but to be honest I don't care, it was like a demon awoke in me.

It was when Japan went up 1 - nil. Suddenly something went off inside me and I felt better than I ever had in my life. What a rush. And ever since then I've been trying to regain the feeling. But it wouldn't come back. I had lost my smile.

My loan is long gone so I went and took out my overdraft. I am too scared to go into the likes of William Hill so I went down he local arcade instead. I went in with a considerable chuck of cash and before I knew what happened it had gone in flutter of flashing lights and screaming alarms. It was only when elderly caretaker came over at closing time, tapped me on the shoulder and said "Come on son, time to go" that I came back to my senses.

At this point I knew should have stopped...

But I needed to pay off the overdraft and like a miracle it was then my cousin told me about the Serbia / Poland derby. Kevin said Serbia were sure thing I knew I could get back all my loses and maybe even a little profit but the only thing stopping me was money. I needed it, anybody's. And I knew where to get it.

I had to get something from up in the roof space of my parent's house a fortnight ago and while I was up there I stumbled upon their Aladdin's cave! In the bottom of a box at the bottom of a pile were 3 envelopes of cash totalling £550. I let myself in and on my return to the attic I took £140 of. The rest of the money I left for the 12 or so visits I made over the course of the following 6 hours. I was fooling nobody and I knew I was going to bet the lot.

Serbia drew nil - nil...

I really don't know what to do now. My head is in a real dark, secluded place right now. I don't even care about my parent's money so much, they can afford it, but I know I need help. I need to find my smile again.

OK. I see how disgusted you all are at what I did. This confirms it. I'm scum. But I won't lay down, not this time. I am so sick of not being able to look my parents in the eye. I am going to put an end to this once and for all. Today I got £150 from my grandparents. I told them it was for rent and I'd pay them back but really I was going to use it to put towards paying off the overdraft.

I'm not going to do that.

I'm going to take that money, get another £200 from my parents and scrape together what I have left to get £500.

£500, 4 team accumulator, USA, South Africa, Slovakia and Romania. More than enough to pay back what I stole . This is it, once I win the money I'm going to walk right up to them, put the cash in their hands and tell them what I did. I know how disappointed they will be, how disappointed I am in myself. But I won't be scum any more.

Seriously DO NOTdo this! Please! I've been there many times before.


And that's a terrible accumulator btw...Slovakia is the only vaguely safe bet there...

OK. I see how disgusted you all are at what I did. This confirms it. I'm scum. But I won't lay down, not this time. I am so sick of not being able to look my parents in the eye. I am going to put an end to this once and for all. Today I got £150 from my grandparents. I told them it was for rent and I'd pay them back but really I was going to use it to put towards paying off the overdraft.

I'm not going to do that.

I'm going to take that money, get another £200 from my parents and scrape together what I have left to get £500.

£500, 4 team accumulator, USA, South Africa, Slovakia and Romania. More than enough to pay back what I stole . This is it, once I win the money I'm going to walk right up to them, put the cash in their hands and tell them what I did. I know how disappointed they will be, how disappointed I am in myself. But I won't be scum any more.

I just checked the odds on those....you're looking to win over £10000, you aren't that much down surely? .....can't see how that's possible unless you had massive savings before you started.....

Betting £500 at those odds is madness...betting on South Africa to beat Denmark is madness.....I strongly advise that if you are going to ignore everything anyone's gonna tell you, then you drop USA and SA from the accumulator...but my stronger advice is that you stop NOW.

I don't think you're genuine. I was going to give you advice, but the tone of your posts suggests you're having fun with what are deep psychological issues for many gamblers.

It's a troll...

This is not true gambling behaviour. Gamblers initially gamble to win...once they lose, they gamble to recover their losses. No gambler would stake £500 at 20-1 odds, if they want to recover say £1000. Far more likely that they will go for small safe bets with a lot of money, or large, risky bets with less money. They don't even seek to make a large profit, until they win back their original amount.....