Hi there,
I met this guy online quite a while ago, at least 3 years ago, and we started talking and got on so well. His personality and humour are so similar to mine, and most of all his intelligence is something which really attracts me.
He is from New Zealand and I'm from England. We expressed that we both developed feelings for one another, but because I'm a rational person, I explained to him that I wanted to stop it before it went any further because realistically I believed it couldn't work. I have had a long distance relationship before (in comparison it isn't as far, he lived in Scotland), and he was my first love. We met quite a few times and things were going well, but we came to a mutual decision that ending the relationship would be best (he was starting uni, I was also starting uni). It absolutely broke my heart, and ever since then I haven't let any guy that close to me (irrespective of distance, I have a permanent barrier up!), apart from this guy in question.
Because of this first experience, like I said, I explained to him that it cannot work. He completely disagreed with me and said he was willing to make it work. I kind of dismissed it. Anyway, we've had each other on Facebook from the beginning, and a few months ago I made a rash decision to delete him as a friend. My reasoning behind this was because we never talked much (he was at university and busy with his studies, I'm not the kind of girl to pester, I did know this but in all honesty I must have had a bad day and I deleted quite a few people). A few weeks later he messaged me all upset, and I explained why I did it. When he sent a last message, I must've got busy, and never replied. So yesterday, I was thinking of him, and asked him if I could add him again. We then had a heart to heart and he said how much he missed me, and vice versa.
I know it isn't a relationship per se, and we haven't said that we're an item. But I have a soft spot for him and I think about him most days. Deleting him from my Facebook was a conscious effort to remove him from my life, but it goes to show that I lasted a few months and messaged him, I couldn't leave it. He also says to me that his family are quite wealthy and that he wants to come and see me when his studies are finished (next year).
What would you do in this situation? Shall I try and forget the feelings I have or hold on to a chance that we may meet one day?